the little girl

2011-01-17T08:26:00.001-08:00

I have neglected this space for a long time
Very busy w my life everyday..
ESP when a new school term just start
Still in a midst of getting used to the timetable
I must be a good girl and attend school everyday.
Hahaha
Anyway, here to wish me and baby a
Happy 39 months anniversary
Thanks for all the love you gave
I know you dote on me the most
Hahaha
Thanks hubby

2011 hasn't been a good year since the very first day
Everything just didn't go smoothly
But I hope it w get better as days passed by
My new year resolution is to pass all my papers and get my cert, be more tolerance and have a better attitude.
I think my temper getting worst, really need to control myself.
Ok, it's getting late
I should faster tuck in to bed
Theres school tomorrow
Goodnight everyone

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2010-12-06T00:09:00.001-08:00

Thanks babylove

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2010-12-05T23:58:00.000-08:00

i'm back again
a busy week indeed
good news..
i cleared my T3 paper on last friday despite of all the suayness that happened to me previously.
so so happy..
and now, my last paper w be on this coming friday and thats marks my holiday
then i can go and enjoy myself liao
i feel like going for a short getaway
anyone interested?

have been sick for like 2 weeks already?
hopefully i w get well real soon.
ytd vomited several times.
lucky my car got plastic bags
if not, i got to clean the car le lor.

babylove have been treating me ultra good.
bringing me to all the places i want to go
despite of the weather, tiredness and also the distance
still, he did not grumble and just bring me there
love him ttm.
yesterday he brought me out in the evening
and he bought me my FCUK watch..
lovelove..
w post a pic of it later on..
hehe.
ok la,
wish me all the best for my last paper this friday ok?
and click on my ads please.
much appreciated(:

2010-11-29T02:07:00.000-08:00

ok, i forgot where did i stop on blogging about my life.
well, it's been awhile since i last came in again.
things wasn't going very smoothly for me
of course, not everything in life..
shall mention some good stuffs first
lol

i recently had my T4 exam and thankfully i passed!
was so excited about it and my babylove came to pick me up
brought me to my favorite dimsum restaurant as promised
im so grateful that my mugging for 1 whole day actually paid off.
thanks god!
2 more papers to go for this semester.
good luck JASMINE!!!

and yes!
babylove finally see through his friend's true colours
i'm so glad w it
hopefully this time round,
he w think properly and not to believe them again.
i mean like yes, you can have them as friends, but not good friends.
not to even mention "brothers"
i guess our lives would be better off without such people

brother is back on town
went to fetch him w his brothers on last thurs night.
ohmann!
he reach spore on an unearthly hour.
445am!!!
wtf right?
in the end, we reach home at 6am..
immediately KO as the following day, im still working
poor me!

wasn't feeling well on friday..
and it was raining cats and dogs that day.
brother came to fetch me after work
and we had an accident.
fuck totally..
because of that accident.
it causes my sickness to worsen
as i was in the rain for like 2hrs?
it wasn't small rain, but heavy rain!
babylove came to fetch me and we went in MSIA.
he brought me to have my favorite loklok..
and that causes me to cheer up alittle

sat went to settle the car stuffs and stay home and sleep for the rest of the day. after baby knock off from his work.
headed to geylang for my favorite dim sum again.
back home at 2am plus..
KO for the night!

sun went out w babylove to orchard to watch harry porter and we are totally suay ok?!
we parked in the open carpark opposite cineleisure.
as there was no free carpark slot.
we just follow the others parking there.
in fact, we actally put coupon
but we still kanna summon!
that causes our mood to spoil la.
then baby brought me to jurong to have currypuff
back home at 12am and KO for the day.

ok, shall update till here.

2010-11-14T20:02:00.001-08:00

A busy but boring weekend
Sat
Wake up at 9plus
Prepared myself and drive to JP
Shop around for the shoe rack
Then had lunch there w mummy
Drive over to workplace
To put the shoerack and fix it before leaving
Then over to dad's company to fetch him
And over to workshop
Ask about some things
Then back home for dad to bath
And mummy and I headed to the centre
Back to home to pick dad
Over to grandma place
Dinner at holland v.
Back home to wait for baby
Was so pissed w him because of his friends
Then we headed to Kallang for supper
Decided not to go in JB
Because it's too late and we are v tired Le

Sun
Initially wanted to wash car
But god wasn't on our side
It rain all day
Decided to go bugis to meet friend
It's raining and so I drive there
Spent 3hr+ there waiting but to no avail
Back to kampong area to change to bike to go out
Then that person kbkp say wait for us v long
I'm fucking pissed and can't tolerate that attitude because I felt that we have been waiting for you for 3hrs+ and we did not even swear at you and you swear at us for just merely that 30mins
Who don't get pissed, I ask you?
So baby was angry too and they two almost got onto a fight
Matter was resolved after that
And we went to had our dinner and back home
But this w be the last time I would like to meet out w his friends
Because all they fucking do is make us wait and when they wait, they w kpkb! So tell me, what are your friends for? Or rather can they even be named as friends? Can't even be bothered w them because they are all damn fucking childish!

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2010-11-10T00:44:00.000-08:00

im bored and here i am.
i felt so dead.
somehow i feel like shutting myself from everyone
i still have another 4 hours more before i can go back home
im not feeling well today and thus i did not have the mood to do anything
stress up by lots of things.
i hope i could get it done fast!

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there ..... for me ...

光良: 你又想起某個夏天熱鬧海岸線
曹格: 記憶中的那個少年驕傲的宣言

光良: 伸出雙手就能擁抱全世界
曹格: 相信所有的夢想一定會實現
光良: 一切看起來都不會太遙遠
合唱: 轉眼之間過幾年

曹格: 輕浮的語言都已慢慢沈澱
光良: 即使難免會變得更加洗煉
合唱: 我們不曾妥協

光良: 那是我們都回不去的從前
曹格: 幸好還可以堅持當時的信念
光良: 世界嘗試改變
合唱: 當初的那個少年

曹格: 那是我們都回不去的從前
光良: 當你站在那個夏天的海岸線
曹格: 我們還是心裡面
合唱: 那個偏執的少年

曹格: 你又想起某個夏天熱鬧海岸線
光良: 記憶中的那個少年驕傲的宣言

曹格: 伸出雙手就能擁抱全世界
光良: 相信所有的夢想一定會實現
合唱: 我們不曾妥協

曹格: 那是我們都回不去的從前
光良: 幸好還可以堅持當時的信念
曹格: 世界嘗試改變
合唱: 當初的那個少年

光良: 那是我們都回不去的從前
曹格: 當你站在那個夏天的海岸線
光良: 我們還是心裡面
合唱: 那個偏執的少年

listening to all these songs makes me rather upset
which i don't even know why.
haisss!

2010-11-09T09:50:00.001-08:00

Things wasn't going v smoothly for the past few days
But I know it w be over v soon
I'm rather upset today
Which I myself also don't really know the reason
Sometimes i really envy those girls who have a good friend
Someone that w be there for her all the times
Be it when she is at her ups or downs
Someone that w place her in a much important place than others
Someone that she need not speak but know everything
Hais
Still the same old things
Find it so sick and tired for the same recurring problem
Perhaps this is just life........

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2010-11-03T00:49:00.000-07:00

wow
it's been rather long since i touch this space
super busy w everything in life
i feel that i got no much time for anything or anyone
how?
i really must learn to manage my time well

work
all the classes have ended
thus we are undergoing some renovation
it's so dirty and messy
totally cannot stand it
i hope the renovation faster finish

my exams are coming
totally stressed
as i have lost touch w my books for months
hope i still remember

shall end here first
will post again when im free

2010-10-01T10:09:00.001-07:00

I felt so disheartened
After all these years,
I'm just someone like this in your heart
Which make me think that I'm a loser in everything
I'm never good enough for you
Or even never good enough for anyone
I can always forsake anything for you
But in your heart,
Its not like this!
Yes,
I'm never a good girlfriend towards all my ex boyfriends
I'm never a good daughter to my parents
Neither a good friend to all my friends
That's the reason why I got nothing left.
I'm always alone by myself
Whenever I got problems
I can't find anyone to share with
I can only secretly weep at night
All my troubles, no one can share with me
I always got to face everything myself
Can anyone tell me?
What did I do wrong?
Or what did I do to deserve all these treatments?
I hate this kind of life..
Am I so detestable?
Am I so hard to be with?
Hais..
Can someone just tell me please
I need to know it so badly...

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2010-10-01T05:30:00.000-07:00

Hi,

here to upload some outdated photos.

haha

Lunch with the ladies:

Natalia. Yvonne. Crystal

Jasmine. Jiawen. Violet

the ladies <3

Dinner at Furama Hotel :

the ladies..

the guys and Mrs. Chia

everybody

my lovely JW people <3

waitress of the day. LOL

Lastly, Happy 2nd Birthday, Nu Leaf!

well, as time goes.

everything changed.

unknowingly, it's going to be 1yr since I started working here.

there's good times and bad times..

but whatever it is,

i sincerely thanks my bosses..

Violet, Andrew and Mrs Chia

without you guys help,

i wouldn't have grow up so much in this 1 yr

whenever i feel like giving up, you all always stand beside me

pulling me through all my ups and downs.

there's times when i feel so demoralised, when i thought my existence is nothing in this world

you all let me know how important i stand.

when my life is in a chaos, you lead me out and also to the right way.

you teach me what is right and what is wrong.

you care so much for my health and my well being..

there's too much more to be mentioned.

you all not only played a role as a boss, but also a friend and even a mother to me..

i really thanks you all for doting on me so much for the past 1 yr..

now,

i got to say goodbye to all of you...

i really don't bear..

hais...

i will miss you guys...

definitely!

thanks for playing such an important role in my life...

with lots of love,

Jasmine

2010-09-30T09:57:00.001-07:00

I felt rather moodless now
Hais
Tell me,
How will you feel when you crack your brain to think of some events for an occasion,
And when that particular person just turned you off by a word of " sian " ?
You try to apply leave and owe another a favor for helping you up that day, and that particular person don't even know how to appreciate it.
Since you want to work that day, you can jolly well tell me.
And for goodness sake, I don't have to feel bad by owing someone else a favor
FYI, I'm just doing my part but since you don't appreciate my goodwill, then forget it!
I'm not going to plan anymore things
Just do whatever you want, lastly don't come and blame me.
Hais..
I felt so demoralized..
Suan Le...

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2010-09-29T09:53:00.001-07:00

SAT
Wake up
Use my lappy
Watch show awhile
Bath and prepared
Drive over to dad's company to fetch him
Send him home and I went over to baby's place
As he just wake up
So ask him go prepare himself while I went over nu leaf to look for crystal
Stayed there awhile and back to baby's there
Had our lunch at the hawker centre
Lepak awhile
And I went back home
To pick dad and mum
Over to IMM
To buy some necessity
Over to timah for dinner
Back home to wait for baby to knock off
Over to msia
Petrol and supper
Back to spore, KO

SUN
Went to packed Mac w baby
Back to his house
Watched the DVD we bought
Lepak and back home to prepare
Furama hotel for dinner
And pasir panjang for supper w baby
Back home aftermath

MON
Wake up at 5am
Send Kor to his camp
Back home sleep
Wake up and prepared
It's like going to rain
So baby and I went back to his house
Lepak and off to work
Kor came to fetch me w Xavier
Hehe
Never wait for baby

TUE
Wake up prepared
Baby came to fetch me
Off to his house
Lepak and work after that
Boss came and left after 10mins
A sigh of relief
Haha
Meet baby after work
Supper and back home

Wed
Wake up prepared
Went to the market w baby
Lunch and back to his place
Down to work
Waited for him to knock off
Supper and now I'm home
Ok la
He nagging at me Le
Stop here first
Byebye

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2010-09-24T01:33:00.000-07:00

THURS
wake up and get myself prepared
train to batok station
meet up with crystal
bus to bukit timah
meet up the girls
and we had our lunch at a thai restaurant
the food was ok..
we took photos but it's not with me ):
violet break the news to them..
the news that make me cried for days
almost all of us cried..
that's very bad, i know!
i thought i could controlled
but i failed..
i'm just a cry baby
oh well,
hopefully i can control myself on sunday
BE STRONG, JASMINE CHUA!!!
haha
ok then we bus back
and alight at different place.
i went back to work as usual
work was freaking boring, i could say
after work,
bus-ed home with johnson.
ck called to meet up
but he was 1 min late.
if he called 1min earlier,
i could have meet him
LOL.
back home, bathe and prepared
then baby came
when i see him,
i got the feeling like wahx, i like very long never see you liao leh
LOL
actually it's just a few hours only
i don't know why i got such feeling too..
HAHA
anyway went over to yuhua there to meet out the cliques
and we headed in JB
petrol and supper
back home and i knocked out
si bei tired lor

FRI
and i woke up at 1+ today
going to be late for work
jitao GG la
faster get myself prepared
and ask baby to fetch me to work
hahaha
now i'm here working
it's raining so heavily and i feel like sleeping so so much
i'm down with a flu now
so terrible
ok, shall get back to work already
update another time
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tyvm
and lastly,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YONG CHENG!

2010-09-22T10:00:00.001-07:00

Today is quite an unlucky day for baby
We went to gombak mrt station there to pay his summon
Then when we back to the car park
We kana another summon slip
Ji Tao WTF la
Mood spoilt..
Back to baby's place
Lepak awhile
Headed down to work
Damn bored at work today
Kept finding people to chat with me
Hahaha
Knock off from work
And I bus back home alone
Didn't meet baby today
And he went back his house too
Shall have an early night today
As tomorrow I'm meeting violet they all for lunch
Alright end here Le
Goodnight everyone
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Tyvm

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2010-09-21T07:18:00.001-07:00

After so long
I finally make up my mind to ask him
But his reaction to this matter is so big
Ok..
It's been so many years since we have went separate ways
I don't know what I did to make you hate me so much?
I just want to know the reason why you keep viewing my blog when you don't even wish to have any contact with me?
Ok
Anyway, I guess you have block me from your facebook as usual from what you used to do
All these years, all you have been doing is keep running away
Perhaps i shouldn't have went to ask you
Suan Le..
I will just go your way..
Goodbye

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2010-09-21T02:29:00.000-07:00

one week never post liao
haha..
i'm such a lazy girl..
ok shall do some update
as i don't really remember liao..

WED
i don't really remember le..
but what's more?
is just work..
haha

THURS
work as usual..
waited for baby to knock off from work
picked me and headed to JB
petrol and supper over there
massive jam

FRI
HAPPY 35 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY
work as usual
waited for baby and the cliques to knock off from work
headed to 651 for supper
back home then
damn tired.

SAT
woke up
get myself prepared.
headed to dad's company there to fetch him
then to Jurong point to pick mum
brought along Xavier with me..
haha
so back home to put him..
and we headed for lunch
then drive to chinatown w mum
went to trim our brows and do some shopping
home to fetch dad
headed to jurong west for dinner
back home then
waiting for baby to be back
and we went JB again
i went back home first
as i was too tired
while he went to wash bike with the others..

SUN
wake up
and had breakfast w family
headed to 9head tua pek kong there pray
then to grandma house
had lunch over there
and headed to bugis with baby
initial plan was to celebrate our anniversary
but his friends tag along
causing me to have no mood
quarreled w baby
but we are back to the square again
dine at pastamania
and back home..

MON
woke up by mum early in the morning at 5am la
damn shag
send bro to his camp and mum to work
wanted to pull baby along for breakfast
but he's sleeping like a dead log
totally can't wake him up
so after sending them
i also went back home to sleep
wake up at 11am with baby
then went back to baby's place
i continued my sleep there
and down for work when it's time..
had a severe headache
came in and found the whole centre fucking dirty
cleaned the whole place using 3hrs ++
i went back home alone without waiting for baby as i'm too tired.

TUE
had lunch over at alif with baby
back to baby's house
and now i'm here working..
ok la..
update another time

2010-09-14T15:54:00.001-07:00

Oh fuck,
It's 6.40am now
And I'm wide awake
Thanks to my mum who woke me up at 5am+ and now I'm unable to fall back asleep!!
Shall do some updates

Mon
He fetch me to work
The war between us still goes on since the previous night
All the way till midnight then we are back as one piece..

The idoit guy who always bully me!!!
Work as usual
And I bus home alone..
Reach batok and I walked home
Abit sot la
But I was on the phone with him..
So decided not to take bus
Reach home at around 1150 like that..
Tired and hungry but no appetite!
Didn't eat for the whole day.
Gastric attack me for the whole night!
Hate it la..

Tue
Woke up at around 1pm
Faster get myself prepared
And korkor send me to work
So many problems
Make me so sick of work
I guess I need a long break soon
I can't take it anymore
Korkor and mummy came to fetch me after my work
Back home to bath
And I meet him for supper
Back home then..

He send me this when he's at work. He asked me to see the queue. Hahaha..

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2010-09-13T05:28:00.000-07:00

quite long never blog again
i also forget what i did already..
anyway will just do some rough update..

FRI
public holiday
didn't work that day, but baby got..
we went to queensway shopping centre for laksa
back to his house and he prepared for his work..
i went back home to sleep..
had dinner with my family..
and wait till he knocked off from work
then he came and fetch me..
went over to farmart for la la and crab.
back to his house..
waiting to see if there's any program..
then they decided to wash bike
ok, i was lying on the bed till song song
and both of us super reluctant to leave the house
we two kept whatapps each other and also whatapps with benjamin..
bo liao lor..
then waiting for ahben to come over..
meet up the others and headed over to bukit batok
washed till 5am+
backed to baby's house and we both dropped dead..

SAT
woke up by his's mother,
went to have breakfast with her at JP..
back to his house
lepak till his working time
he send me home and he went off to work
back home, bath and prepared
meet up cheryl and chinkoon at JP.
dine at fig&olive
then coffee bean to slack
waiting for the guys to knock off
they came over to fetch us and we headed to m'sia.
back to baby's at around 5am..
bath and KO.

SUN
woke up and baby send me home..
dinner with my family at buddy hoagies
then went to watch movie with the cliques.
back home after that
quarrelled with him till now..
hais, sick of relationship!

2010-09-08T05:38:00.000-07:00

MARRIAGE - By Stephanie Halmilton

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?

I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.

I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.

I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.

That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....

The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!

I believe that a lot of people might have read this before, but i find it so meaningful so i decided to share it with you guys. Sometimes I really wonder what gave the girls such a huge courage to accept that their husband have an affair outside? Many of my friends have encountered this and they gradually can accept and still stick with the guy, pretending nothing had happened.. I'm someone who can not accept such affair and I really detest and abhor guys doing this to the girls.

When you decided to have an affair outside, have you ever think of the girl who you used to vow infront of everyone that you will love and dote on her, the girl who have spent her life, her youth on you? Been hearing so much of such things make me so afraid of relationship. Why guys can't just stick to the one and not going out to fool around? Hais...

2010-09-07T09:37:00.001-07:00

Mon
Baby and I went to west mall for breakfast
Shun Bian send his Sis there too as she's meeting her friends
When on the way there, we almost met with an accident lor
Ccb sia!
Think of it make me damn pissed
We were at a cross junction
And I'm going straight when it's on the green light
I was driving quite fast
And suddenly a car from my left dash out sia
It was red light for him Mann!
Ccb lor!
I ji Tao Step on the accelerator to pass by him lor.
Crazy fellow!!!
Ok enough of it
Make me du lan only..
Had Mac for breakfast
Intially, I wanted to eat kfc breakfast but baby say its not appealing
So eat Mac lor
Then back to baby's place
Change to his bike and parked back my car
Then on the way to cut his hair,
He race with a pink SP
Then baby Tia the SP with a speed of 180km la
Cb lor!!!
Then someone so proud..
LOL
I also don't know why he want go race with people
Then went for his hair cut
Back to his place
Then awhile later I go to work
He went for his medical appointment at NUH
And was given an additional month of MC
Song lor
Then he Went to work
And I got to train home alone
Hate it la
I'm being so pampered Le lor
Used to it Liao
Then now got to take public transport
Abit not used sia
But need to xi guan now

Tue
Went queensway for laksa
Back to baby's place
Then both of us went to work
And I bus back home today
Meet him at my house downstairs
And we went nearby for our supper
Now back home
I'm here blogging while he watching his anime
Like a kid only
Ok la
Shall stop here and retire for the night Liao
Good night

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2010-09-05T08:35:00.001-07:00

Sat
Went for car inspection and then renew road tax
Then had lunch at macs
Went home and then go cut hair
My hair so short now
Baby came to pick me
Headed down to bugis
Slacked at there
Walk and bought my stuffs
Meet up some of our friends
Then arcade all the way
Like a kid only
Settle our dinner at kfc
They went to play pool
Loser punch
Lucky baby won all the match sia
Thrash people lor
HaO lian la..
Back home then

Sun
Went to Tua pek kong at 9head
Then lunch and back home
Went to tiong bahru plaza with baby
Catch the movie love cuts
Nice lor
So touching
Initially quite boring but at the ending damn nice
Settle our dinner at burger king
Down to pandan garden to meet jk
Then down to west coast Mac to slack
And now I'm home
Waiting for baby to bath out and then sleep
So long lor
K la
End here first
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2010-09-03T07:55:00.001-07:00

Just knocked off from work
Very sian
So come here to post
Hahaha

Thurs when I go work
I received a big present lor
Guess what is this?

Know what is it?
Let me show you a clearer view

Idoit lor
I damn scare la
And Si bei er Xin
Called baby immediately
Asked him come save me
Lol
Then he came and save my life
A while later,
Violet and Alan came
So save me from going to the bank
Hehehe
And they bought chips for me
So nice of them lor
Thurs is a good good day despite of the opening present
Baby bought me this when he's back from outside

My favorite sushi
Hehehe
Then supper with baby after I knocked off
And back home then
Baby is such a good boy to stay home and accompany me
Finally guai guai a few days lor
Dk when will go back to the same again

Then today,
Send mummy to bbdc early in the morning
Then went to fetch her in the noon
Out with baby for lunch and bought both our stuffs
Back home and then work
Now waiting for the cliques for supper
Si bei sian
K la,
He du lan wait for me Le
Post another time
Goodbyeeee

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2010-08-31T11:01:00.001-07:00

I really don't understand why you everyday need to go out till so late, you will never understand how I feel!
Let's just put it this way, what if I'm always the one that is always out till so late with my friends? How will you feel? Please go back and reflect about this!
You won't like it, neither will I ok!
I'm tired of saying you already, I gave you tons of warnings, when it's over my limit, I would just say goodbye to this going 3 yrs relationship!

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2010-08-31T10:49:00.001-07:00

Just got home
Super tired today
I also don't know the reason
Lol
Today went to workshop with baby
Repaired his bike and saw le Hao there
He also went to repair his bike
Lol
Then went to imm for lunch
Had ljs
Then back to baby house
Lepak awhile then went down to work
Work was ok
Alan is so nice to buy me food lor
Ytd I was randomly telling him that I want to eat this and that
Then today he packet it to me
Thanks so much la
Baby was angry and he kept complaining that I didn't wait for him to eat
Lol
After work went to meet up with the 4 others..
Ah girl was there too
Bth her lor
Then baby and me went off first
He wanted to eat his fav curry puff
So went 3 head there for it
Back to baby house to slack
Then we went to pump petrol
And back to gombak Mac
Now I'm home..
Sibei tired Liao
I want go rest Le
Goodnight people
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A picture of my handsome dog

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2010-08-30T08:58:00.001-07:00

Just reached home
Baby brought me to eat big big fishball and curry puff
Should snap a photo of it
But was too engrossed with the food
Haha..
Ok shall go to bed soon
Baby and me going for Mac breakfast tomorrow
And he's going to repair his bike
Hais..
Money need to go out again Liao
Sad..
Ok la
BB is waiting for me Le..
Goodnight
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2010-08-30T00:11:00.000-07:00

ahhh
i simply got no time to blog about ndp or thailand trip
hahaha
to be true, i'm very lazy to do so..
anyway i fell real sick for the past few days
and the feelings really sucks ttm..
right now,
i have only recovered 75% of it..
hopefully it will get better and not worst..
pray hard for me ok?

school is coming to an end..
and it marks the start of my exam
siannn

actually saturday,
my initial plan was to catch a movie
but in the end, we headed to JP
no suitable timeslot
headed for lunch and we went tiong bahru
meet up with the other 4 friends..
slacked and headed to vivo...
had my favorite ben&jerry..
slacked all the way at there
then to bugis to meet up with another friend
had our dinner at there
wanted to go for singing session
but all fully booked
sian..
then we decided to go find hongye..
and they are washing their bikes..
so he also wash
i was happily playing with the water la
hahaha..
like a kid only..
bth myself also
washed all the way till 3am plus..
and im so dead beat as i am still sick
so i went home
and they went for supper...
and he got home only at 6am plus
angryyy..
because i only fell asleep when he's back!!!
might as well go with him lor..

woke up,
prepared and headed to grandma house
then the cliques said they are going to watch movie
so we headed to vivo again..
superdog for lunch..
i dont like.. still prefer my macdonalds.. hahaha
there's no available seats left..
and ben jio us go k
so....
we went for singing session at chinatown there with 6 others.
50% good and 50% bad..
quite bored at there..
but overall still ok la..
shall go again the next time but definitely not with so many people
hahaha..
2 people enough..
im anti social ma
LOL..

and now im thinking what to eat..
im super hungry now...
faints..
ok shall go pack some food le..
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2010-08-20T03:41:00.000-07:00

wow,
it's seems like is so long since i last touch this space
i'm so damn busy these days..
lots of changes happening in my life.
hope all these stuffs will be over soon
ok,
my next post will be either the NDP i went for or thailand trip
i'm so so lazy to blog..
i promise i will..
hahaha...
ok la..
shall not slack any further..
stay tune for my next post..

2010-07-29T02:35:00.001-07:00

Saw this post on Audrey's blog and I find it damn true and nice..
so decided to re post it and share with you guys.


When she starts cursing at you trying to act all tough
Kiss her and tell her you love her

When she's quiet
Ask her whats wrong

When she ignores you
Give her your attention

When she pulls away
Pull her back

When you see her at her worst
Tell her she's beautiful

When you see her start crying
Just hold her and don't say a word

When you see her walking
Sneak up and hug her waist from behind

When she's scared
Protect her

When she steals your favorite hoodie
Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night

When she teases you
Tease her back and make her laugh

When she doesn't answer for a long time
reassure her that everything is okay

When she looks at you with doubt
Back yourself up

When she says that she loves you
she really does more than you can understand

When she grabs at your hands
Hold her's and play with her fingers

When she bumps into you
bump into her back and make her laugh

When she tells you a secret
keep it safe and untold

When she looks at you in your eyes
dont look away until she does

When she says it's over
she still wants you to be hers

When she reposts this bulletin
she wants you to read it

- Stay on the phone with her even if she's not saying anything

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go
- When she says she's ok don't believe it, talk with her because 10 yrs later she'll remember you
- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her
- Treat her like she's all that matters to you
- Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think it's stupid
- Give her the world.
- Let her wear your clothes
- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her
- Let her know she's important.
- Don't talk about other girls around her
- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up to you crying, the first thing you say is
Whose ass am i kicking baby?

2010-07-22T05:30:00.000-07:00

i'm not in a absolute good mood today
early start of the morning, the rain already spoilt my mood
drag myself out of the bed as usual
and i hate to see babyboy still lying on the bed sleeping
it only makes me feel like sleeping more
arghhh
anyway i got no choice,
so i got up and get myself prepare
off to the train station
and im freaking wet
thanks to the weather
totally turn off lor
just bath out only sia..
then reach the platform
i waited for the train for like 20 over minutes before i can board it
so many people la
pissed
reach school
totally no mood to listen to class le lor.
but still,
i listened.
im such a good girl
back to work then
online shopping all the way
bought damn lots of things.
any kind soul wants to help me foot the bill please?
LOL
whenever JASMINE CHUA is in a bad mood,
she tend to use retail therapy
the one and only way to cheer her up
HAHAHA
i can't imagine my parent's face when they saw all my loots.
LMAO.
ok
work ending in another 1 hr time
i'm tired already..
tomorrow school again
shagg
but on the other hand,
it's FRIDAY.
and i'm loving it so much
because i can get to enjoy myself after tomorrow
hehehe
alright,
end here then..
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tyvm

2010-07-21T02:19:00.000-07:00

OH MANN
i am damn bored and i am so pissed off
mood swing high high
abit sot today
so come here rant alittle
was at MSN gossiping with Natalia
enjoying sia
i really abhor people with no responsibilities
at least they inform la
and it just become our fucking responsibilities to clear up the mess that you all left
damn you all mann!!!
why can't you all just do your fucking job well?!
it's just a matter of time
i'm not going to be so nice to you all le
fuck you people
just because you think you are here longer than me
you can go over me?!
i'm just covering all for you
with several repeated reminders.
you all are just giving me all this shits!
i might burst out soon..
WAIT AND SEE!!!

today is wednesday
and JASMINE got no class
happy little girl whenever it comes to wednesday
because i can rest till song song

nothing much for the past few days
just school and work
tiring lor
my sickness like getting worst
have not recovered lor
damn me for being a glutton!!

have been sleeping damn early these few days
before 1am sleep already..
such a good girl..

2 more weeks
counting down!!!
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tyvm

2010-07-19T02:44:00.001-07:00

i'm so damn tired.
falling asleep soon
but i got to endure since i'm working now
past few days have been enjoying life and thus i'm so tired now
falling sick again..

sat,
woke up at 10plus
do some stuffs and back to my bed again as i'm too tired
dad came home at 12 plus
woke up and get myself prepared.
brought my babyboy to grooming session
my hands are all scratches
thanks to him lor
went to shop around alone
and back home
used the com for awhile
went out for lunch
back home after
and went to bring babyboy back at 5.35pm
home, prepared
off to eat my favorite curry noodles with my family
decided to buy durians and i suggested bringing dad & mum to marina barrage
had my durian there
love it ttm
nice scenery and it was their first time there
so they kept taking photos
saw lots of people putting kite there
and its damn beautiful la
home after that..

sun,
wake up at 8am in the morning la
thanks to my mum
had breakfast with my whole family plus babyboy
so long didn't went out to have breakfast tgt le
went to the market with mum
i'm such a good girl right
haha
walked around,
back home and concuss all the way till 2
mum suggested to go west mall
went to Tian po and she bought a gold anklet.
i'm damn fucking envy ok
if you all know me,
everyone know that JASMINE CHUA cannot wear anklet
once i wear, the next minute the anklet will snap.
and i'm just damn unlucky
ok,
i gotten a gold ring at there too
love it mann..
i have been craving for it for like 123456789 years already lor..
hahaha..
and i think my wire jiap sat lar that day lor
i went to buy 3 packets of bird nest at fu hua..
initially only wanted to buy 1 packet since there is 6 bottles inside
i also don't know what happen to me that day
since i got eat it,
so buy together lor
damn sad..
money fly damn fast lor..
heartpain!!!
back home after that
dinner with family
and back home after since i'm not feeling well
did mask and slept for the day

mon
school as usual
drag myself out of the bed
it's damn cozy and i am damn reluctant to wake up
but i got no choice.
after school
meet Natalia at city hall station
and off to Marina Sq to meet Violet
Irish pub and I think the food is nice
thumbs up
back to work after
and now i'm here blogging..
haha
ok la,
shall get back to work le.
update soon
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2010-07-16T12:49:00.001-07:00

Quite long never post Le
Just came home
It's going to be 4am Le
Got to go to bed soon
Tomorrow need to bring my babyboy to his grooming session
Shagg
Went to watch blood pledge at cine just now
I don't think is scary enough
But overall still ok la
Then to ECP for supper
Carl jr.
And now I'm back home
With a damn full tummy
LOL
Ok la,
I very tired Le
Shall blog another time
Goodnights

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2010-07-06T10:15:00.001-07:00

Just reach home after meeting baby for supper, tiring day.. School was practically boring as what that the lecturer is covering is what I have studied before, therefore I was hugely tempted to close my eyes and knock out. LOL. After school rushed back to my workplace, received a call from NATALIA that some kids are outside the centre since 4pm. I was then OMG la!!! No choice, they have to wait, since they didn't inform me that they are coming early.. Haha, evil grin!! Work is fine and I was damn hungry, so I kept saying all the good food out, thus making ALAN damn pissed.. Because initially he wanted to skip dinner but the good food temptations is so huge that he can't refrain himself from going to eat it.. Haha. After work went to meet baby and we had supper and then slack awhile and now we are back on home. Alright, I shall get my ass to the bed now.

Love this photo..

And before I end this post, a photo of me and baby, both wearing specs(:

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2010-07-04T23:45:00.001-07:00

been neglecting this space again
lol
school reopen already
and i totally hate the timetable
mon tue thurs and fri
which only leave me wed to relax
ohmy..
i just came back from school
and is totally terrible for me
i'm freaking tired
and my eyes can't wait to close la
still force myself to stay awake till lesson over
back to my workplace now..
and i'm still very tired now..
will update more when im more awake..
goodbye

2010-06-30T01:15:00.000-07:00

as mentioned in the previous post
sickness knock onto my door again
yesterday had a big fight with baby
this time seriously big...
and i'm wounded everywhere with bruises..
sobs..

when we are quarreling,
suddenly i got an attack on my chest
sharp pain that causes me giddy and my tears rolled down like tap..
damn it lor
went to the clinic
doc say it might be anxiety that causes my gastric to worked up
so my chest will feel the pain
but in any case, they might be wrong..
so she referred me to do further checkup
i didn't have the time as i'm rushing back to work
so i told her i will do it on another day
she insisted me to take MC for the day
but i refused
back to my workplace
took the medicine,
and the medicine is so strong that really make me damn drowsy
the only thing i can do is bear and fight against the drowsiness.
and my eyes are so painful
i don't know is it the side effect of the medicine,
i stop taking it already
now my eyes are still so puffy and pain
i blink my eyes also pain
sobs...
will update after i get better..

2010-06-28T02:19:00.001-07:00

i'm back to this space again
i feel that my life is so mundane
everyday is the same old routine..

these past few days i have been struggling with my mind and heart
i didn't know which decision is the perfect one
anyway, till now i still have not come to a conclusion
I heard from someone on the other day,
whenever we get into a relationship and we leave that particular person
we will always hope that there is still a thing that belongs to us..
and when the other party give their everything to the other person,
we will then feel the anger and hurt
I don't understand why human are like this..
and I was wondering did I leave a part of me for my past relationships?
and do I still stand a place/something in them..
In fact, I knew the answer very well..
but I'm still very curious to know it.

Baby is recovering
he can stand and walk for a distance without any help
it's great to see him recovering
yesterday,
he even accompanied me walked all the way to the market
despite of the looks on other peoples' face and everything
he is one that cares alot on how people look at him
I knew he felt terrible although he did not breathe a word about it
I simply just don't understand why in the earth that people are so KPO
ask these ask that..
shut up people!!!
it's none of your business right
why do you bother to ask and look
it's not like as if he is an alien or something...
damn all these people mann!!!

he has been giving in to me way too much
I know it hurts you to see me changing
but I also feel the hurt
I hate to see you like this
I hate to see you always compromising to whatever i asked for
even though you feel so much agony
I hate myself for being like that too..
hais..

wasn't feeling well for these past few days
sickness knocked on my door once again..
please let me recover soon..
end here first..

2010-06-21T02:21:00.000-07:00

Fri, 18 June

work as usual that day
i think i was alittle sick as the cramps are definitely killing me
Mrs Chia saw my face and ask me why am i so pale
told her the reason and she say let's pack up and go
ask ANDREW close door.
LOL..
so she send me home then

Sat,19 June
accompanied baby till 3 plus
rushed to JP to get my slippers
bought 2 pairs this time
and rush home
felt so damn pissed off
as they kept rushing me
was alittle upset when im over at JP
i used to always grumble when baby brought me to JP
i don't like going there
but now i missed baby bringing me there so much
i always grumble when bb say go watch movie and gets so pissed off with it
because we always waste our time inside the theater and i don't like it
now i yearn so much to catch a movie with him
hais
anyway stop all these..
prepared myself and went to SAFTI
dad and relatives were already there when we reach
so we went to find them
soon everything started
photos are uploaded to FACEBOOK
after the parade
dad and mum went to the dinner with kor
while stef and i went for the buffet
waited for them to finish
and back home at 10 plus
out for supper after that

Sun,20 June
wake up damn early
headed to grandma house
celebrated Fathers' day
went to TPY
to get the NDP tickets
hehe
back home then
fell asleep as i'm too tired
wake up at 10pm like that
went for dinner with parents
and back home

Mon,21 June
went over to baby's house
accompanied him all the way till 230pm
and down to work...

2010-06-18T00:39:00.000-07:00

another 1 week had passed.
time flies very fast
i don't have enough time..
time please stop for a moment... plssssss
anyway a rough updates for the past 2 week.

wed, 9 June

on leave that day..
went to the library alone to study
had a fight with dear that day
causing me to be so frustrated and i switch off my phone
my poor baby threatened to come out of the hospital himself
and his mummy came over to the library to look for me
as i was not reachable
after a long talk with the mum,
i finally gave in to him...
and we are back to the square again..
back home then..
had my dinner and i was too tired
ji tao doze off at the sofa
bth me lor
woke up at 9 because of the television noise
and i watch the 9pm show
back to my books..
but i was too tired to continue
tried lying on my bed and i cant
overly stressed myself

Thur, 10 June

finally slept at 6am+
woke up at 7am+ and his's sis came over to look for me
we went for breakfast and together we went to the library
study and went for lunch.
back to books again till 5pm when the mum came
went to have dinner with her
and we bought durians to eat
awesome durians la
and she bought some for my family too
thanks ya...
back home
tried to study but to no avail
gave up in the end

Fri, 11 June

woke up at 7am plus like again
back to my books
really cmi lor
went for lunch and to RP for my exams
i used the whole 2 hrs without slacking
and i cant finish my paper
gone case mann
went to causeway and packed some food for baby
travel to hospital and we quarrel again
this time is because of my FB..
I know and understand that he is jealous
but I just get very pissed when he kept asking
in the end, both of us gave in and I cab home at 9 plus
tiring week..

Sat, 12 June

went to ICA early in the morning with mum
renew her passport
and we went for lunch
wanted to go shopping
but cant think of any place
so headed home
took my passport and we went to Malaysia
back home at night...

Sun, 13 June

wake up at around 9
bath and prepared
went to the hospital and pick my precious
he's DISCHARGE..
went to alot of place to do his things
and i went to meet my family for dinner at 7 plus
then send kor to his camp
and back home

Mon,14 June

was awaken by baby at 6
he's not feeling well again..
called the ambulance
and he went back to NUH again
we quarrel that day again..
i don't know what exactly happen also
maybe is because i'm having moodswings.
gave in in the end..
work as usual

Tue,15 June

It's always nice to have baby around me
i love to cuddle and sleep with him hugging me on the bed
brought him out for lunch and send him back home before heading to work..
meet YVONNE & EDNA for supper with NAN YOU..
back home after that

Wed,16 June

Nu Leaf outing
damn tired.
a long day for all of us
work after that...
initially we wanted to hit the club after work
but we gave it a miss in the end
CRAMPS are definitely killing me that day..
supper and back home then

Thurs, 17 June

HAPPY 32 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO DARRENTAN&JASMINECHUA
i always love lying in his arms..
baby sayang me as i'm having terrible cramps...
love love love
then brought him out for lunch
and i'm late for work
so i open the door first before sending him back
wanted to catch a movie with YVONNE but we left the centre too late..
so we gave it a miss
got the huge cravings for DURIANS
and we both went to buy
settle ourself at some random void deck
and started our gossiping
LOL..
back home at 12 plus then..

Fri, 18 June
Wake up at 7 plus
bath and prepared.
accompany baby to UBI to make his report
then we headed to ASP to pay his installment and back home
now im here working..
tonight dont know got what plans again
shall see then..
update again real soon..

2010-06-13T08:48:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling alittle depressed today.. Hais, I hate that feeling!! Can someone save me ??

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2010-06-08T10:33:00.001-07:00

Work as usual today
Slack my day off
Had a huge cravings for fried udon noodles
Anyone know where got sell or any kind soul willing to cook for me??
Haha
Went to the market there today
Was being chase after by a cat
Fuck damn it la
Causing me to have chest pain
My heart damn damn pain lor!!!
I think I need to do a medical checkup soon
After work
Went to have supper w violet they all
Then violet send me home
Thanks thanks
Alright, it's going to be 2am Le.. Shall get my ass to the bed..
Goodnight

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2010-06-07T20:26:00.001-07:00

Ok
The previous post I was saying that I need to reach amk hospital by 9 right?
Obviously I overslept
So I woke up at 10 plus
Faster chiong to bath and prepare then go wait for cab
Damn pissed off
Waited for cab for 15 mins
Board cab then traffic jam all the way from batok to toh tuck
And suay suay toh tuck rd PIE closed
So we got to re route
Cab super expensive lor
Ok nvm,
Reach already then went to find bb at clinic b
He is almost ready
Went to have our lunch then
Then wait for ambulance to pick us back amk hospital
I stayed in the hospital w him all the way till 10 pm
Then I cab back home as I was v tired

Sat
Wake up at 7 plus
Went to bath and prepare
Train to school for exam
I didn't pinned much hope that I w passed because I never study
I just did my best and lastly I passed
Super lucky
Trained to amk then
Packet mac for baby and me
Cab to the hospital
And I stay there till 4 plus when his dad came and he fetch me back to jurong to meet up my mummy
Went to shop around and back home at 10 plus

Sun
I stayed home for the whole day as I was super tired

Mon
Work as usual
Back home aftermath
Applied leave for wed Thursday and Friday
Thanks boss..
Hehe

Tue
Alright got to wake up Le
And need to prepare for work soon
W update again

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2010-06-03T11:46:00.000-07:00

hmm

a short update

actually i'm supposed to study now

but in the end, i happily online shopping away

damn me mann!!!

why i just can't be a good girl and focused more on my exam

hais!!!

anw, i have clean forgotten what happened past few days

maybe is because nothing happened

thats why i don't remember any

work have been rather busy for the past few days exclude today

today is the slackest day for this week

did nothing, absolutely nothing but slacking

hopefully work won't give me any problems for the next few days

btw,

I finally managed to get someone to cover me next week

will be going on exam leave

really need it desperately

LOL..

because JASMINE is a last minute worker

will only mug at the very last minute

what to do?

LOL..

today after work, heart to heart chat with yvonne

lovelovelove

super missed those time when we everyday meet lor

well,

we both are busy with our stuffs

hopefully after my exams

we can go out to shop or sing k together

hahaha

oh no...

it's 3 AM now

and I'm supposed to reach hospital by 9am tomorrow

i doubt i can make it

oh mann

diediedie!!!

after being strong for going 1 month,

i finally break down and cried out loud

i know it hurts you so much hearing me crying over the phone

yet you could do nothing over it

i know you feel bad,

we both felt terrible!!!

hais,

i realised so much after this incident

how much i rely on you for the past 2 years plus...

when i sad, you will hug me and ask me what happen...

when i cry, you will dry my tears and try all your means to bring back my smile

when i sick, you will bring me to the clinic and make sure i take my medicine and sleep well

when i alone, you will always try your very best to come and accompany me

when i finish school/work, you will always be there to fetch me, be it whether you got your own transport or not

when i go school/work, you will always be there to bring me there, making sure i won't be late for any

when i tired, you will always let me lie on you and sleep if we are outside/ hug me and coax me to bed when at home

when i yearn for something, you will always try your best to get it for me, be it the thing is within your means or not

when i know where to go, you will always bring me to the place, even if we lost our way or we took more than 1 hrs plus to find the place

when im bored, you will ride me throughout the whole spore just to find a place that i wish to go

when i want to eat something, you will never failed to bring me to the place for it

baby, there's too much more to be mentioned...

i know you love me way too much than what i can imagine of...

please faster recover and i need you by my side...

2010-05-29T10:10:00.001-07:00

Today went to meet mummy at her workplace
Vivo for lunch
Shop there alittle while
Then headed to Chinatown to trim our brows and bought some daily necessity
Orchard for shopping then
Bought myself a Burberry perfume and mummy got me a guess bag.
Sobs
Money fly away again
Lol
Didn't went to find baby
I know he cfm disappointed
Feel so bad sia
Sorry bibi
Shall go sleep Le
Goodnight..

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2010-05-28T03:38:00.000-07:00

Today I find myself alittle crazy
Travel here and there
Very tired sia
Early in the morning wake up
Breakfast w family
Then off to amk there to pray
Back to grandma house
And then went imm to buy my cosmestic
Girls so troublesome lor
Waste lots of money on all those products
Sobs
Money flew away again
Went to find baby
Now still at the hospital w him
Going to meet family for dinner soon
Alright, A photo of my babylove before I end this post.

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2010-05-27T10:49:00.000-07:00

finally another week ending le

after working for 4 days and schooling for 1 day

i'm going to take a break for 3 days

love this week ttm mann

LOL..

that day when i go down to hospital after school

my sweet baby pass me a packet of

and follow by saying " wo liu gei ni de hor.. wo zhi dao ni xi huan chi"

hahaha..

although that day he make me angry

but of course i can't get angry with this stupid guy of mine for long

i brought him out to take a walk

and he let me found out something

when i know it,

i swear the disappointment filled my heart lor..

and of course i was fuming and burning hottt!!!

then i wheel-ed him back to his ward and i walked off

and he stupidly wheel out and chase after me..

damn ke lian looking at him like that lor

but...

i was going to be late for work

so i just say i gtg and byeee

off i went in to the lift and go off..

then he kept bombing my phone,

trying hard to explain...

with his perseverance,

in the end, i gave in..

hais,

i really got a very silly and cute baby..

sometimes really cnt stand him..

alright enough of him then..

work was terrible this week,

alot of things to do..

lots and lots of enquiries come in

too much for me to remember

i think i really need to get myself an organiser..

bth..

my STM getting worst ahhh...

today got a mother come..

fuck sia she..

first time in this job, she kanna my attitude lor..

i was freaking pissed off with her already yet she continue sia

damn it..

and i ji tao attitude her lor..

i really cnt take it liao..

think of it makes me angry lor..

ji tao turn off sia..

alright,

i can't get to sleep..

the weather is freaking hot..

lucky i got air-con sia..

if not i will die with this kind of weather..

shall end here..

update again soon..

goodnight

2010-05-26T01:52:00.000-07:00

BAD DAY!!!
yesterday whole night have been bugging by my dog
keep asking me to wake up
damn irritating
then early in the morning, house phone rings
brother call from his camp
wtf
i thought something happen to him
actually is he forget to bring something and wants my parents to bring to his camp for him
then i went back to sleep
but irritating dog don't let me sleep again
siao sia..
don't know what happen to him
then prepare myself for school
muddle headed me went to withdraw money
and i took the card and i leave without taking the money
damn fuck
i think there is nobody much more stupid than me le la!!!
i only get to find out hours later
told baby about this and he say common for me
no big deal lor
damn!!!
because i can never take my ATM card also
he always got to help me to take
if not i will leave it there and walk away
fuck sia..
why i so stupid and blur?

finally went to book my exam date
and is next week..
ahh
i haven even started touching my book
need to mug hard le la..

you make me feel so disappointed in you..
make me realised how *important* i am in your heart
hais,
perhaps to you, promises are just nothing
i don't wish to quarrel with you
it hurts me to throw you there and walk off
but i need time to cool down
sorry
hais!!!

2010-05-24T05:40:00.000-07:00

was busy for the past few days,
thus i neglect this little space again..
everything is well on the track now
hopefully it stays...
i finally realised how much i hate monday
my work always piled up to the brim
and i got to slog all my way to clear it..
completed all my work and now i'm waiting to knock off
this week is fine as i only got to work for 4 days
and 1 day for school
damn free...
didn't have much rest for the past 2 weeks..
wasn't in a real good mood for the past few days
and now i'm back to normal

he had been transferred to another hospital
and i swear i freaking hate that place
it's super far away and the place is freaking horrible
as the hospital is very far away,
i won't be going down everyday..
will only drop by during weekends
hopefully you will understand
i didn't changed...
you indeed hurt me by saying this
i know you felt terrible too
i won't blame you
i will pray hard for your speedy recovery
and hope to fetch you home soon

i hate to fall sick
and i hate to have moodswings and lost of appetite
causing me to vomit every single day without failed

i wish i got more than 24 hrs in a day,
so i can have time for myself and my friends
been missing them lots
hope to catch up with them soon
exam is drawing near,
i'm really stress up..
please let me be a good girl and study hard for my paper
i can't afford to fail..

i saw something,
is that you?
i wonder....

2010-05-19T05:54:00.000-07:00

i'm so tired and sleepy..
early in the morning, pulled myself out from bed
get prepared and off to school
hate the morning traffic
lecturer is so good to buy us breakfast
yum yum
i swear this is the first time i really cnt tahan and started lying on the table, falling asleep
kept forcing myself not to close my eyes lor
the feeling super terrible
finally class ended
went back to workplace
i dont know why but im like being cursed lor
everytime i went to the market there to buy food
go there never rain, come back cfm rain one
very suay sia
hmm
work as usual
knocking off soon le..
wondering if i should go down and visit baby or tmr then i go down
btw baby w be transferred to another hospital tomorrow morning
and that means that i cant go visit him everyday le
the hospital is so far away
and i dont have the time to travel all the way till there lor..
maybe i can only go on weekends le
sorry..

you kept repeatedly telling me the same things
i know you are upset and are very affected by this
i answer your question till i don't know how to answer already
hais,
nobody want all this to happen
if that is really the case,
all you can do is accept it
i hope you will be strong..
im sorry, i really can't do anything..
i can only lend you my shoulder and give you a hug if you need it
haiss

2010-05-18T05:22:00.000-07:00

hais,
yesterday baby went back to NUH to check his wounds
but result wasn't very good
thus, causing him to be a little emotional
hope he will look on a brighter side and stay strong as usual
i just want you to be happy
that's all i ask for..

2010-05-17T00:12:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 31 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY to baby and me

hope you will get well soon and faster discharged from hospital
jyjy.. i know you can do it de
baby went back to NUH today
hope everything w be fine for him and in another month time he can discharged
hehe

everything is the same for the past whole week.
you can either find me at my house, workplace or hospital
life is so mundane
i think baby is recovering le
as in, he have more energy
at least he can push himself up..
unlike the past few days
hope in another week time his arm and left leg w recovered
then he can start his therapy..
wonder when will be his next operation
hmm..
alright, update again soon

2010-05-14T20:32:00.000-07:00

finally got the time for myself

just rest for awhile before heading down to the hospital

past few days very tired

i guess i'm totally worn out

giddiness, vomiting and fever became my best friends for the past few days

the feeling was terrible when i was sick yet i don't dare to tell anyone

i know baby know that i am not feeling well and it hurts him

he always sms me telling me how hurt he is to see me so sick and tired everyday

i know if i don't go down, you will anyhow think again

although you will say don't come down, but i know you still will wish to see me go down

in order not to disappoint you, i always drag myself to the hospital no matter how terrible i feel

hais

baby, i know that hearing what your friends said, you will always be upset

because you also wish you can go out with them to rounding and not lying at the hospital bed

i really hope you will stay strong for this few months..

it's just an hurdles you have to go through

i always told you, whatever you do, think for the consequences first

you chose to ride bike, this is one of the consequences you have to consider

how much hurt you have caused to everyone who cares for you

how much worried and tears you have brought to your family

yes, you might be suffering so much now..

but do you know that your family members also suffered with you for these past few days?

they felt much more hurt than you are feeling

because they get to see you but can't help you

this is much more worst..

you told me when you discharge, you want to ride bike again

hais..

please think of all the things again

i won't stop you if you want..

but i will be very disappointed with you

because i thought you will be once bitten twice shy

whatever it is, i still wish you will faster get well soon

i miss you always bickering with me, asking me to think of the places i want to go

i miss you always coming to pick me up, to and fro, to all the places without fail

i miss you always bringing me to all the places in singapore to explore nice food and places

i miss you always standing at the glass door trying to scare me when you come to fetch me after my work

i miss you always hugging me and coaxing me to sleep

i miss you always pestering me to hug you to sleep

i miss you always complaining that i use the lappy and never accompany you

i miss you always acting like a baby, want all my attention, care and love

alot more to mention.. and i really miss you so muchhhh!!!!

2010-05-12T01:17:00.000-07:00

on monday, i was still happily thinking where to go with baby for supper on that night after work, then such a thing happen. at around 5 plus. i was damn hungry, thinking if i should get some bites to fill my stomach first. till 6 plus, then i bth, go out get some food and drinks to fill first as i scare i might not be able to tahan all the way till night time. when i happily gotten my food back, then my phone rings, and i heard that baby was involved in a road accident. I swear that my mind went blank at that particular moment, i thought that he is sleeping soundly at home. i called up my boss and off i went. cabbed over to NUH and waited at the hospital for hours. damn the people there. totally don't let us go in. Heard that he got a fracture, i thought the accident wasn't a severe one. till the doctor came and ask the mum to sign the operation form. waited for hours and baby was still not send to the operating theater. call the doctor in-charge and finally she let one person to go in. I went in to take a look at baby. fuck, all over his body was blood. he grab hold of my hand telling me how much hurt he is in. it just pain me so much to see him lying there yet i can't do anything to ease his pain. i was utterly engraved with hurt deep down my heart. I kept telling myself i can't cry, because it will make everyone more upset. Finally he went in to the operation room at about 12 plus and came out at 6 plus.. the whole operation took about 6 hrs. he's then being send to the ward and i went to accompany him. the first thing he ask me is "will i don't want him" damn, it hurts me so deeply when he ask me this, I know he is inferior in a way and was afraid that i will leave him. hais, and then he followed by saying lucky i was not with him that day and that makes me ultra guilty. If i were to go with him in the noon time, perhaps such a thing might not happen. he will be a good boy sleeping soundly at home. i super hate myself. why i don't want go with him. how much hurt i'm bearing to see him lying there yet i can't even help him to share a single pain of his. everytime when i hear what the doctor say, it shattered my heart to pieces. the doctor told us that it was a real bad accident and all over his body was injuries. hais, if only i could share away some pain of his, but i can't.. perhaps if i were with him on that day, he wouldn't be so badly wounded. hais. but all this things cannot changed. hais, how i wish all this are just a nightmare, perhaps i would feel much better. I know and understand how he feel, I felt so guilty that i can't stay by his side 24/7. I need to study and work. hais.. im sorry my dearest.. i will always try my best to go down if i can. i hope you will be a strong boy.. remember that i might not be physically with you but my heart stay with you all the time. love you always..

2010-05-10T00:54:00.000-07:00

monday again..
definitely sian
because it means that i need to work for another 5 days before i got my break again
shall do some updates before i start working
slack enough liao
haha

last sat,
meet up baby's relatives and celebrated mothers' day
dine at HOSHI at IMM,
the food is nice but kind of expensive
after lunch, shopp around as it was raining
can't go anywhere also
ard 5, baby send me to grandma house
celebrate mothers' day again
love special occasion because i get to eat lots of nice food
haha
i am a glutton
after grandma house, headed back to baby house
bath and slack around
went to eat supper again
see! if i say i not fat, people also won't believe lor..
haha
supper at pasir panjang
my favorite place
then back home to sleep

on sun,
baby booked in early in the morning because he got duty
sian lor
leave me alone sia
then i slack my day at home
evening time, went out w family to celebrate mothers' day
and korkor booked in back to his camp
mummy and i headed to bugis for shopping
as i dont feel like going home so early
walao, damn sinful
spent over 100 bucks on shopping
then back home and use com all the way till 3 plus
and off to my dreamland..
hehe

today,
baby booked out at around 8plus
came to fetch me and i accompanied him to ASP to settle somethings
then mac for breakfast and back to his house
now im here working..
sian lots of works piling up
makes me feel so sick
shall start working now
will update again soon
goodbyee

2010-05-05T00:55:00.000-07:00

1.沒有一百分的另一半.只有五十分的兩個人

2.付出真心.才會得到真心.卻也可能傷的徹底.保持距離.就能保護自己.卻也注定永遠寂寞.

3.通常願意留下來跟你爭吵的人.才是真正愛你的人.

4. 有時候.不是對方不在乎你.而是你把對方看的太重.

5. 冷漠.有時候並不是無情.只是一種避免被傷害的工具.

6.如果我們之前有1000步的距離.你只要踏出第一步.我就會朝你的方向.走完剩下的999步.

7.為你的難過而快樂的人是敵人.為你快樂而快樂的人是朋友.為你難過而難過的人.就是那些該放在心理的人 .

8. 就算是BELIEVE中間. 也藏了一個LIE.

9. 真正的情人.並不是在一起有聊不完的話題.而是再一起.就算不說話.也不會感覺到尷尬.

10. 真正愛你的人. 是那些雖然看透你的缺點. 卻依然還能諒解你的人.

found this and i feel that is damn true, so share it w you guys..=D

2010-04-27T00:32:00.000-07:00

woah, super long never come to this space le.. rotting ya? anyway, i want to thanks all the people that help me to celebrate my birthday, those who gave me presents and all those who sent me all the birthday wishes.. thanks thanks.. my workplace people gave me a surprise birthday party. i'm so damn touched la.. love them to bits. and not forgetting my friends who help me.. thanks, i love you all too.. and of course, my dear who brought me to Singapore Flyers on my bday and he spent quite alot on that day *guilty*!!! haha.. i enjoyed myself and spent a fruitful 19 birthday. thanks everyone...

everything was fine, it just that the past few days i fell sick, till now still haven recover lor.. hope i will get well soon.. i had my first exam and i passed! damn happy.. i shall put in more effort the next time round.. i suddenly feel so guai lor, two days before my exam, i went to the library earlier in the morning ALONE to study for consecutive 3 hrs before heading to work.. first time in my life i went out myself without the company of anyone.. i'm improving..yay.. please let me learn to be more independence please..... but baby came back le.. make me rely on him again.. he's pampering me way too much.. fetch me to and fro.. ahhhh.. i can't let this carry on.. he's spoiling me..

oh well, i miss yvonne.. so long never talk to her le.. i think she today got exam.. good luck my dear.. don't stress yourself so much.. jyjy.. i know you can de..

btw, baby and i gotten ourself a new toy, and im loving it... haha.. baby love it more than me lor.. lol.. jasmine is a happy girl again..

alright, shall end here first le.. got to work.. no more slacking.. update again soon..

2010-04-13T05:46:00.001-07:00

suddenly felt very emotional
i don't know the reason, for god sake.
was very hyper just now and my mood just suddenly turn ....
i thought i wasn't very affected that if the important peoples in my life would remember the day
but i am still kind of being affected ba
perhaps this month got alot of my friend birthday and looking at all the surprises birthday party they get makes me kind of envy lor
not much plans this year
not many remember and ask me if im going to celebrate
only a handful of them
hais
i should have tell myself
it's just another day
it doesn't really makes any difference ba
i wonder where baby will take me to?
will it be another disappointment from you?
i hope not..
i will be very affected if you failed to do anything
haissss
i should not pinned too much hope, i don't want to be very disappointed la....

2010-03-28T21:25:00.000-07:00

i think i damn long never come this space le. since i'm damn bored now, so i shall do some update. this week wasn't feeling so good like i always do, perhaps my work makes me feel kind of exhausted. i used to start work at 430pm but now i start work at 230pm. so straight after school, i got to rush my way back to workplace, damn damn chuan. but no choice, i got to think of the money issue and i have to drag myself to work. baby wasn't by my side for entire 2 weeks and finally he's back. i hope things would still be the same, too much problems and issues makes me sick, i just feel like sticking to my decision.

last last saturday had bbq w my colleagues to celebrate Andrew's birthday, felt so relieved that things turned out fine as i'm one of the organiser. lucky i didn't mess it all out. but some got drunk and we video-ed. damn hilarious. i hope Andrew do enjoy the celebrations and all had an enjoyable day.

sun went to work as usual, train-ed the new admin but in the end she quit before she start work, damn fucked lor.wasted my time. after work back home to have dinner. felt so lonely without your accompany

lead a mundane life again on mon to fri with schooling and working. but thanks to my dear Yvonne who never fails to keep me accompany every day. felt so thankful to her so rotting her time away with me.

sat back to work again, waited for my baby to book out, back to his house after i knocked off, and we went out. i almost DIE that day. baby and i were on PIE towards town and the jam makes me so tired and i ji tao doze off. damn tired because of all the late nights and waking up early, baby was changing lane and i almost fell off his bike and he try to siam away from the BMW who is going to knock on me and he try to pull me back. LOL. he is so pissed with me because we almost got into an accident because i was sleeping soundly away. hahaha, hence, the whole day he kept turning back to look at me to see if i was sleeping. damn funny la. but he is sick that day, he didn't want to sleep with me because he is afraid to spread the germs to me but nevertheless, i still got onto his germs and i had a slight flu on sun morning, that makes my mood turn 360 degree bad. sian diao. went to bugis on sunday with my parents and i met him at jurong east, he picked my up already and we went back to his place to meet up w his relatives. had dinner together and i accompany him to get his MC at AH. kind of fast lor.after that we went to anchorpoint to shop shop. and grab some bites before heading back to kampong area to meet up his cliques. slacked awhile there then we went for supper and back home.

today morning, we had breakfast together, so long never had all my meals with him le. love it love it. and now he is sleeping so soundly away. shall go wake him up le as i'm going to work soon. he is going to book in tonight again.. arghh $%#$^%&. i hate it! alright, shall go accompany him le.. byebye

2010-03-18T22:52:00.000-07:00

back for some updates

life is so mundane nowadays

damn damn sian

thurs, 11 mar

seriously i forget what i did that day

but what else, beside work

haha

no life!!

fri, 12 mar

meet yvonne and susan in train

headed to clementi kbox

started our k session

and weiqian came in after awhile

after ksession,

we all went separate ways

and weiqian and i headed back to workplace

work my day to the night

sat, 13 mar and sun, 14 mar

went to school early in the morning

so many people didnt come lor

after school meet my dearestbaby and back home together

headed to workplace first to check if everything is alright

then back to dearest house

wanted to catch being human but it started raining

so we have to watch the next timeslot

stay at his place till the rain almost stop

then we headed to JP to watch being human

i like the show lor

cried several times

i'm a cry baby

xdxd

then walk around

baby went to buy for me the wallet i fancy

hehe

lovelove

then we got a big argument after that

because i don't want go meet his bunk mate

then blablabla lor

in the end they already buy our tickets for movie

ji tao left w 15 mins lor

chiong all the way done to plaza sing

sian diao

catch being human again

zzzz

damn waste money

after movie headed to ECP

they say got bike vs bike

woohoo

then baby want see

so go lor

had mac over there

then know that is cancelled

siannnnn

then baby sent me home around 3++

so sad lor

baby didnt go back home w me

he went back to find his friends

then back home at around 6+ 7.

and he almost got into an accident

zzz

his leg is injured

then ask him to rest awhile before he send me to work

and so suay that he went to meet his friend, he is being knocked by a car

lucky no injury

damn suay lor

i think i need to go to the temple help him pray le la

that day i also damn suay

went to get lunch in the end kanna whole body drenched

damn shit

go back office still so cold

in the end fell sick again

then after work meet him and he send me back home then he went back to his camp

mon, 15 mar

baby called and told me that he is being charged SOL

damn fuck la

then caused my baby in the bad mood

no choice but to coax him awhile

hope he feels better now

but i think tomorrow he w be in bad mood again

looking at all his friends booking out

hais

work as usual

supper after that

and homee

tue, 16 mar

work started at 2pm

damn sian

makes me kind of sick

because i got to face the two most irritating person

after work back home then

wed, 17 mar

happy 29 monthsary to babylove and me

so sad, you are nt by my side

anyway went to school in the morning

after school

went to help baby pay his installment and take his bike thing

then to imm for lunch

back to work

and home after that

thurs, 18mar

meet yvonne at JP

had our lunch and headed to work

work starts at 2pm

my slipper spoilt again

damn sian

called weiqian to help me get a new pair

after work had supper

and home after

today,

going to work later

and i think home after work lor

siann lor

alright, i shall end here first

byebye

2010-03-10T09:19:00.000-08:00

going to be one week that i didn't touch this space

haha

kind of lazy to blog

anyway i shall start w a little updates for the past few days

sat was a little date w baby

went to nu leaf first to see if everything is alright

accompany yvonne to SPC to buy drinks

headed up to baby house

waited for him to get prepared since he just booked out

then we headed queensway for laksa

my cravings.. lol

he accompany me to chinatown to get my stuffs

back home to put things

went jurong to find his cliques

then JP to watch movie but no slot

clementi for pizza hut

rounding to geylang

and back to cck

meet up my cliques

gambled and home

haha

my baby like v long nv sleep in his own house

either sleep in camp or at my house

lmao

Sun

force baby wake up

had breakfast w him

and he sent me to work

met him after work

he sent me home

and he booked in

Mon

went to work as usual

then met yvonne for supper

back home

Tue

met yvonne for PizzaHut

my cravings again

LOL.

then work as usual

back home straight after work

damn good girl

Wed

went to school early in the morning

heavy rain somemore

can't believe i'm such a good girl can

met yvonne after school

we had LJS

my cravings again

hahaha

she always qian jiu wo

even my dear girl is sick

back to nu leaf together

she help me to do the house chores can

this kind of friend where to find sia?!

i felt so guilty lor

she help me so much

thanks god for giving me such a nice friend

not forgetting my dear girl, TGS

forever there helping me without any complaints

i thought i would never find anyone like you two

i w always treasure this bond

hope our friendship w last forever!!!

i came upon weiqian's blog

and read her post

i guess i got something to say with regards to that

you said that you are drifting apart from us

we have lesser communications

but did you try talking to us?

we still talk to you as usual right?

it's just that maybe we are all busy and at that period of time you are also having exams

your time at nu leaf is also short

after tuition, you always go up to your boyfriend house

how to talk to you?

how to ask you out?

we can't possibly ask u out when we know that you are spending your time w your boyfriend

we knew that you seldom get to see him

so we as your friend, we understand and we didn't wish to disturb.

3 persons w always have one that is left out

you felt left out is because you have to accompany your boyfriend

and you can't join our outing

is not that we didn't ask you out

whenever we go eat supper after work,

you either have to meet your boyfriend or you are at home

which i don't think you can come out or you will come out at this late hour for just one meal

and we can't possibly travel all the way to cck to find you right?

it's totally not on the way

yvonne house is near to my house

i have to passby there to go home too

yvonne and i don't have boyfriend by our side now

so we are quite free

thus we have the time to come out and meet

our time is flexible

and we always meet out last minute

you claim that nowadays you wasn't being asked out by us

are you sure?

we did ask you out when we go shopping at bugis but you have to accompany your boyfriend

that day when you are at nu leaf, i also ask you if you want to join us for supper

you are the one that turned me down!

ytd i went to meet yvonne for lunch, i called you but you are spending your time w your boyfriend thus you can't join us

so, is this the so called " you wasn't being asked out?"

seriously,

if you feel unhappy about us, you can always come straight to our face and talked it out

perhaps you might feel uncomfortable w some of our actions these days

you can always say out and let us know, if not we wouldn't know and we don't have the intention of leaving you out.

if we really do, we won't be calling and ask you out

go think about it seriously!

alright,

i shall end here for now

good nights

2010-03-04T22:17:00.000-08:00

gonna do a short update before i get myself prepare to work

i don't really like my life nowadays

my sleeping hours are not accurate

my eating hours are not accurate

everything is not accurate

it harms my body this way

sian dia0

anyway i woke up at 1+ today

still, super tired

but i got to pull myself up

if not tonight i can't get myself to sleep again

haha

went shopping w Yvonne ytd

cfm big damage sia

but i enjoy retail therapy w her

back to work as usual

nothing much also

back home then

had my supper and off to bed

i'm thinking if i should just switch to part-time instead

i don't feel like working on weekends

as usual, i'm out till late hours

and i always got to think that i have to wake up early the next morning

thus go home early

but still slept a few hours and i got to wake up to work

damn shag

the thing is i don't know how to tell Violet

arghhhhh

still consideringgg

siannnn

suddenly got the dreading feeling of getting myself prepare for work

how how how?

ok la,

shall end here first

maybe i will be back tonight

2010-03-02T08:01:00.000-08:00

i think i have neglect my blog again

i'm so into autumn concerto these days

can't seems to stop myself from watching it

ytd night i watch till 4am++ gg 5am.

i cry alot while watching this show

tonight must sleep early as i got class tomorrow morning

cant skipp class le la

must keep telling myself

hahaha

i can't believe that Yvonne posted my photos in her blog

super ugly can?!

i think i look sick

the kids at my workplace ask if i am sick

hahaha

but my voice changed and i hate it

i dont like man man voice

i prefer my super girly and childish voice

haha

yvonne really knows me well

she know that i went down because i know she is sad

so smart uh

see i so good

got gan dong bo?

haha

work today

nothing special

get to see sukwai

damn miss her la

missed those days when we are at nuleaf on Mon

when there is only yvonne sukwai jeff and me

then we will chat in nuleaf till quite late then

got to go watch my show le

byebye

2010-02-26T18:53:00.000-08:00

ok i'm back to posting

see la, for the sake of my HELL!!

LOL

YVONNE is my HELL and i'm her SUNSHINE

only she know why i will say this

LMAO

ok i'm crazy

this few days nothing much

only my leg hurts so badly

hao xi wang i can cut away my leg

it makes me cant sleep at night

sobsss

work was fine

thurs aft work i went to have supper w yvonne at yuhua there de mac

loves all the heart2heart chat and gossiping

n1 la.

it makes me think alot and all the bad memories flashes in my mind

makes me feel like weeping

i have keep all those stuffs in myself for super long le lor

its been years i think

this is the first time i said it all out

her stuffs seems so alike to mine

it makes me hate guys so much

not all, just some!

ytd after work went JP to meet up yvonne w susan

but susan ps we 2

go meet her boy boy

so left me and yvonne again

this time we had KFC

hahaha

i think i'm bad

because i kept tempt her to eat fastfood

and i'm growing in size

how how?

dear is booking out in 1 hrs time

hooray

we didn't plan any outing today

so i don't know where we are going

so stay tunned

be back soon..

haha

2010-02-23T08:35:00.000-08:00

kind of bored now

nothing to do

going off to bed soon

my lesson starts at 930am tomorrow

super sian

thought of squeezing the train w so many people makes me damn shag

no choice~

anyway met gs at JP for lunch today

PIZZAHUT again!!

oh no,

i think i w put on weight in this manner

ltr baby come back w complaint that i'm gaining weight again

hahaha. XDXD

still got 4 more days then i get to see him

anticipating for his return

i felt damn lonely without him by my side

super not used to it

so now food and junks become my companion

LOL!!

excuses for myself...

anyway nothing much this few days

home work home

sian right?

ok la..

shall go meet my baby in dreamland liao

hahaha

abit sot le

goodbyeeee

2010-02-20T22:30:00.000-08:00

i'm back!!
didn't touch the com for a whole of ytd
super tired and shag now
the day before ytd,
yvonne came down after her work to meet us for dinner
so nice of her right??
LOL.
chat alot and i found out we have one common thing
we are afraid of CATS!!!
i forgot we left at what time already
but when we reach the train station, we missed the last train
damn sian la
poor susan lor
got to cab all the way back to BEDOK..
home and online
and i slept at 4+ gg 5.
woke up early in the morning to open door for my brother
then i accompany him to chevrons to get his army things and IMM aftermath
settled our lunch at cafe cartel
the serving was super big for me la
i can't finish it
after eating, brother and i went separate ways
i cabbed to meet my baby while he went to meet his's
but how i know when i reach, baby is on his way going out
he's coming to pick me lor
sian diao
i should have call him lor
wasted my cab fare
then i accompany him to go chevrons again and do all his stuffs
went back to his house till 6 plus
and we went to lao yu sheng w his family
back home
and our gambling starts
actually both baby and i lose $80 at first
played till 1am ++ and then we went to find baby's cliques
gambled again
in the end we lose around $20
reach home bath and slept all the way till this morning
force baby to wake up and he brought me to eat breakfast before i go work
damn damn tired
baby going to book in again
siannnnnnnnn
i'm left alone again
alright
end here first.

2010-02-19T01:17:00.000-08:00

im working and slacking again
bored bored bored
nothing to do
just finished talking to a parents
kind of pissed off
i wonder is it my chi lousy or she just purposely dont want to understand
damn it
supposed to go yvonne house this afternoon de
but my laziness got over me
i just cant pull myself up to go prepare
damn damn lazy
hahaha
so i bomb them aeroplane
=X
tonight they not working so no one accompany me eat dinner le
sian sian sian
k la
i go work le
cnt slack liaoooo

2010-02-17T19:51:00.001-08:00

i'm so bored now

still waiting for yvonne's call to see if we are still meeting for lunch

can't seems to contact her

like forever..

LOL

i hate it when my sleeping hrs changes

i can't sleep ytd night

lie on my bed all the way till 5+ then i fell asleep

and all the bloody sms-es woke me up like 8 in the morning

hate it

im so sleepy yet i can't sleep

can someone tell me what i can do?

jasmine is so bored without her dearest

i guess he must be enjoying driving now

shall not disturb him

let see if he will call me when he's having his lunch break

alright

end here first byeeeee

2010-02-16T21:30:00.001-08:00

I'm back!!!

Firstly, wishes all a Happy & Prosperity CNY.

hope all of you enjoyed, but I didn't=(

i ate alot of reunion dinner this year within a day

in the noon went to my grandma's place to eat

she cooked alot as usual and i ate alot

i totally forgotten that i still have to eat later on

grandma's cooking is always the best

went to GIANT after that

mum and dad still need to do some last minute shopping

and baby came to pick me at IMM and back to his place for reunion dinner

i swear i totally cant squeeze in anymore

but i still did

finished eating, slacked at his house for awhile and waited for baby to prepared himself

and back to my house

my mum prepared steamboat

i told myself im going on a diet but...

totally no choice

after eating we have to prepared our house for new year

we did till ard 1+ and baby and i went out

thought of catching a movie but it was so late alr

so went to find ck and slacked

then we went to pump oil and home

CNY day 1

v tired

sleep till 10+ then get ourself prepared to grandma's house

settled our lunch at there and went to my uncle's house

this year not alot of people came

but alot of my nieces and nephews

this proves that im getting old

played 21 there and i won

dad say that he's having a headache so we stop and went home

baby didnt know how to go my uncle house so i meet him at my house there

came my house and pick me up

back to his house to bai nian

then waited for him to prepared

we headed to ck's grandma house

met him there and baby and i went to pioneer mall there for dinner

lots of people

damn sian

meet him back at his place

and play poker again

then the cliques came down

i stayed there till 2 plus and i cannot tahan alr

so baby sent me home

initially baby don't want to go down alr

but in the end he still went down

throw me alone at home lor

jk=X

he played till 6 plus then go home

CNY day 2

went to his grandma house

his dad came to fetch us

then his ahyi drove us to orchard

thought that orchard was open

but it's closed

then went to JP for lunch cum dinner

and his ahyi drove us back to my house

we got no place to go

so decided to bring xavier out

damn funny

carry him sit on bike

went to find jk and awhile later sent xavier home

then we headed down to JP to meet up the cliques

wanted to catch a movie

but no slot

settled our dinner at there and went to yc's house there to play poker again

alot of things happen in between again

don't feel like mentioning

home at ard 4+..

reach home gg to 5 liao

damn tired

CNY day 3

didnt go anywhere

went back to baby house for lunch

and back home after..

he booked in to his camp already

before that we sort of having a cold war again

sometimes i hate myself for showing that kind of attitude

and i can't just give in to him when i know is not both of our fault

but i just hate things to go this way

i know he must be feeling v bad that i didn't want to hug him before he go

he must be yearning for it as some reassurance of my love

i got to wait till sat then i can see him again

i know i will miss sleeping beside him

miss him hugging me to sleep

miss him kissing me every night

still got alot but not to be mentioned..

i'm sorry my baby

i know i hurt you

today is our 28 months..

you are not by my side=(

hope you w pass your course soon

jy and all the best

alright,

im going to get myself prepared and off to work already

update another time...

2009-12-27T00:16:00.000-08:00

i'm BORED!!
yes, i am slacking during my working time
so tired
feel like dozing off but i can't
knocking off in another 1hr time
i have been slacking ever since 2?
LOL
caught zhong ji san guo
can't wait to watch the next episode
i hate to wait la!!!

finally the war between baby and me was over!
i don't like explaining things because i think there isn't anyone else who will ever understand me,
more than i myself do.
I don't yearn for more in a relationship.
Just someone i can be myself in front of
and say absolutely anything i want.
Someone whom i can click really well with.
Someone i feel comfortable with.
Someone who makes me feel important
and gives me his full attention whenever i need it.
Someone who is understanding and reasonable.
Someone who can compromise and trust me more than his friends.
Someone who shower me with his unconditional love and care.
actually the recent war that started is because one of his friend told baby something that which i think wasn't really true.
perhaps he did really saw me but is not on that particular month, week or even day.
do you know that even a min or a sec cn change alot of things?
i'm not trying to shrink away the responsibilities.
but i fucking detest those people who try to put the flame on between couples when they say things that wasn't true.
fuck them!!
but i'm more upset that you simply trust others words rather than you believe what your girlfriend say.
and during xmas eve, we got a big fight
but everything resolved in the evening
had our dinner and meet up the cliques at bugis
went for sheesha at bugis and clarkquay after that
enjoy myself =D

on xmas itself,
i went in to msia w dad and mum
shopping and settle our dinner at there
baby and i are planning to go in msia this sat..
hmm,
maybe we should go in on friday night?
stay over at there and come back on sat?
hahaha
shall discuss w baby again.

ytd went to gs's bbq
kind of bored initially as i don't really know the people over there
but afterawhile,
everything was ok
damn shit la
i bbq-ed the crabmeat and i think is not cooked la
then i still eat alot..
in the end, my stomach hurts so much till i force myself to vomit out
and i vomited all the red colour stuffs
damn erxin
red wines and vodka w the people over there
had fun and home sweet home aftermath

arghhhh
i'm super sleepy
knocking off soon
haha
k la
shall update another time
=D

2009-12-25T08:05:00.000-08:00

MERRY XMAS to all!!

just came back from msia

hahaha

enjoyed myself today

kind of lazy to blog.

update another time=D

2009-12-18T08:46:00.000-08:00

finally all the events that my company have are OVER!!!

have been rather busy these few weeks due to all the on going events that my company have

and baby was on his blocked leave too

that makes me double extra busy!!

got to accompany him in the morning till i go work and after work got to meet him

it's been rather unfair for my dearest.

but he never complaints

and i'm always the one complaining..

thinking back, i know i'm bad la

i have neglected him and his feelings

sorry baby~

baby was being posted to driver.

he confirm happy la

i'm glad for him too

haha.

waiting for him to complete all his license

i know la..

you then can show off to me

but nvm,

i got class 3 license jiu gou liao

waiting for you to drive me out leh

hahaha

he w be booking in to his new camp on mon

leaving me again

anyway,

yesterday was our 26 months anniversary

didn't went out to celebrate due to the time constraint that i have

kind of sad la

sorry baby~

but tomorrow going to town w baby

woohoo

and night time drink drank drunk w my colleagues

sun confirm KO

haha

my school starting soon

counting down

k la..

end here first

2009-12-03T18:50:00.000-08:00

working in the morning is never a good idea when you go home late ytd night
so so sleepy now..
haha
today first lesson starts at 10am
so poor me, got to reach before 930am
and work all the way till 1030pm
jasmine w become a walking corpse tonight
there's nothing for me to do now
so i'm slacking over here
hahaha
ytd after work went to meet my girls
so nice of gs to accompany me to go alanna's house there
thanks alot girl
and thanks alanna for helping me w the card
simply love my girls to bits

quarrel w boyfriend in the morning is never a healthy choice
oh well,
i guess i w just let things be
accused me for all you want!
there's nothing i'm afraid of
i'm speaking the facts
feel it w your heart instead of believing what your mind thinks
you made me feel like going back to single life
perhaps i wouldn't feel so pressurize this way
whatever.
i'm not going to let this affect my mood like i always do
it just harm my body for getting so worked up and pissed
goodbye.

2009-12-02T07:46:00.000-08:00

since i'm free now

shall drop by here for some updates

if not my blog seems so dull

went to register for my private school already

starting in Jan

cant wait lor..

anticipating la

hahaha

nothing much happen recently

i love my life so much now

everything seems so perfect for me

job kind of tied me down

not much social life, im enjoying

but at least i still have alittle time for my dearest.

my job is good w all my nice boss and good colleagues

they just cheers my day up

so satisfied w everything i have now

just hope things wouldn't change

haha

next week baby jiu POP

kind of guilty

as i can't attend

i'm sorry, i know you wouldn't hold it against me

sometimes when i hear baby say that others gf will go fetch their bf makes me rather sad

i know you are upset why i can't go over but there's nothing i could do about it

hope you understand

i w try my v best to spend more time w you during your 2 weeks blocked leave ok?

promise..

k la

shall end here

update another time when im free.

2009-11-18T20:16:00.000-08:00

it's been sometimes since i last came to my blog

shall do some update

things wasn't going v well for baby and me

but i guess it will worked up soon

i'm so sick of explaining myself again and again

it's just the matter of trust

i hope you could trust me and this relationship

seriously, i don't need a boyfriend that suspects and questions me whole day long

i'm just a human being

no matter how high is my tolerance level or how much i can compromise

i will get sick of it one day

you know, baby?

i have to work,

and my work needs me to remember alot of stuffs

there might be something that i will forget to do

perhaps i saw the msg when im busy and i jolly well just cancel it away

thinking that i will reply later but when i'm done w my stuffs

it just slipped off my mind

i hope you are understanding enough

although i forgotten somethings

but i didn't forget our monthly anniversary

i still text you

hope all this will clear your doubt when you see this post

i'm already tired of explaining

and ya,

i finally signed the form and i quit school

in a job that my boss is good and everything is so perfect for me

i'm so happy that i left that place

now waiting for my private school to start in Jan

really didn't regret my decision

i'm v happy now

except for my relationship

hopefully it will turn out better soon

shall end here first

2009-11-04T22:34:00.000-08:00

baby is booking out later

so happy and excited

anticipating to meet my botak!

im going over to pasir ris to fetch him

2009-10-25T17:49:00.000-07:00

after much consideration for the past few weeks

i have come to a decision

i'm going to quit attachment and school

and take up private instead

i totally can't stand that bloody old woman in the company

i see no point carry on when i already don't have the heart in there

although i knew that my decision will disappoint alot of people

i can only say i'm sorry and thanks for all the advices and comfort you all gave me

i believe i will live better off this way

so sorry my baby,

i can't wait till you booked out then make decision

since i won't be taking any pay,

i don't want to work extra days for them and help them to earn sales

no point right?

i know you will understand me

i'm missing you.

2009-10-24T09:25:00.000-07:00

it's been sometime since i last touched my blog again

so some updates:

17/10/2009

met baby and initially we intend to hit the cathay for some movies

on our way there,

i thought of asking cheryl&cheng to go Pulau Ubin for some cycling on 18/10/2009

but then they decided to go today

lol

met them at the train but then we think it was too late to go there

scare no more ferry

so we went to pasir ris instead

did some cycling and settle our dinner at EHub

home aftermath

18/10/2009

totally forgotten

19/10/2009

work

rush back to jurong

had dinner w baby & his family

accompany baby to buy his stuffs for NS

and home after that

20/10/2009

work

met dear at bugis for dinner after work

and went orchard for some shopping

home

21/10/2009

didnt attend work as requested by my dearest

went to his house early in the morning

and guess what?

that fellow not at home

make me bomb everyone call to wake him up

pissed

after that sleep at his house

and met ck at jurong polyclinic

went to see doctor

and requested to do xray for further medical review

then went IMM w them for lunch

and JP to meet up w the rest

baby went for his haircut

and he became botak!

stupid ck go video somemore

damn funny

then went to slack for awhile

and all went home

that moment when baby kiss and hug me before he go

makes me feel like crying

i can't bear to let go of my arms

sobs

22/10/2009

baby went in NS

unfortunately i can't accompany him

due to my work

thinking back,

i hate myself so much

and i hate the fucking company too

i know baby is upset that i can't go too

hais

so sorry

work was terrible for me

i burst into tears again

i just don't understand why is there such nasty customers in Singapore

damn it

maybe that day was just not for me

before i went to work that day,

i already cried once

i don't know exactly what happen to me

maybe im too insecure?

i don't know

and facing a long list of nasty customers makes me weep

i hate the useless me

i hate myself for being such a letdown

i hate myself for always letting hubby worry for me

from the very first day of work,

he's my motivation to keep me going on

everyday when i felt like giving up,

he kept repeating telling me to endure and he's there for me

and i will get to see him when i knocked off

but that day i know it v well,

i can't see him after i knocked off

i have to go home all by myself

i hate the feeling of not having hubby by my side

then i realised how reliant i am

when Zaki came,

he asked me why i looked so sad?

i felt like crying again but i hold back

he then told everyone of us

if we were to give up now,

why do we have to endure for the past 1 yr plus?

why didn't we quit school from the v 1st semester?

what do we really want from it?

all the question he asked kept repeatedly appearing in my mind

his words are power

he knocked alot of sense into my mind

he teaches me alot of stuffs

i don't want to be a tortoise

i don't want to hide away when i faces trouble

so hubby, i will stay strong till the day when you booked out

you promised to give me a big hug when you see me

i'm waiting for it

baby, by the time you see all this

i want to tell you,

you don't have to worry for me

because i will be a strong girl

nothing can beat me down

ok?

i'm missing you hell lots

after work that day,

went to meet gs and her friends

had dinner at causeway

and home after that

23/10/2009

2nd day without hubby

went to work

i'm strong that day

cuz i have been telling myself hubby will call me later

had dinner at home

waited for hubby's call

after hanging up w him

went to sleep

24/10/2009

3rd day without hubby

work

after work i felt sad

hearing everyone meeting their bf makes me down

i'm all alone again

went westmall for lunch

and home aftermath

bath and fall asleep

wake up had dinner and talked to hubby on the phone

now here posting

and im going off to bed soon

baby, im so missing you

sobs

2009-10-16T09:12:00.000-07:00

it's the 17 of oct

HAPPY 2 YEARS ANNIVERSARY
to ♥baby and me

time really flies fast,

when we don't even realised that we've come so far

these 24 months with you was a pleasure
there's time when we quarrelled and give attitude
there's time when we shouted&screamed at each other
there's time when we walked seperate ways
& you didnt try to

let go even though i did.
im sorry i've hurt you
im sorry im not perfect
im sorry that im selfish
im sorry that im hard to handle
im sorry that im difficult to be satisfied
im sorry for the times that i give u pressure
im sorry for being a failure girlfriend
im sorry for not understanding you

im sorry for the time that i've neglected you
im sorry that i can't always be there
im sorry for all the tears that you've shed
im sorry for being unreasonable at times
im sorry that im not a perfect girlfriendi got to thank god for giving me such a ♥boyfriend that will always be there to see me through
one who tolerate my unreasonable acts
& taking in all my sarcasm words when we quarrelled

one who will dote on me and spare all his time with me despite neglecting his friends
one who will lend me a listening ear and a shoulder to lean on whenever im down
one who will dry my tears when i cry
one who will catch me whenever i fall
♥baby,
there are too many too many words to describe our love
you r the reason that we've come so far
you always sacrifice yourself to save this relationship
you always compromise to my wants
all the bits&pieces things that you did for me
it's greatly appreciated
thks ♥love

don't you worry that i will change heart when you go in NS

have faith in me and this relationship

i love you and this is the fact that wouldn't change

i hope this relationship would last as long as it will
i will keep holding on and never give up
til the day when we say "i do"
im awaiting for this day to come
when i get to walk down the aisle with you
when we get to start our own family
when we get to have little baby
it's a long term promise, ♥baby

2009-10-16T07:39:00.000-07:00

went back to work today

after one whole day of calling

i only managed to get 2 sales la

the feeling is super shag

if you are working over there,

you then will know how the feeling goes

in the team, everyone is so competitive to produce sales

and when you find yourself still having 0..

the feeling is bloody worst la

iris went home halfway as she's not feeling well

and i felt so bored

so secretly messaging w baby till i knocked off

i'm going off to bed soon

update another time

byeee

2009-10-14T22:47:00.000-07:00

jasmine's SICK

finally defeated to the temptation of getting MC!!

LOL

been dragging myself to work even though i'm running a fever

never see myself so guai before la

seriously,

i can't wait to get my ass out of that company

even for a second!

but on the other hand,

i definitely will miss JOHN & PAUL

the 2 great leaders of us

that have been helping us all the way from day1 since we started work.

now and then,

i always have the mindset to give up...

rather don't graduate than to continue working there

thinking back, i felt myself so useless

how can i have this kind of thinking when i have been trying my best to achieve grades for the past 1 yrs plus?

i fell in such a dilemma whereby i don't know what's right and wrong decision

arghhhhh

is so tough

i don't know why that stupid old women got to push us so hard

it's so hard to breathe in there...

on the other note,

i felt that i have been neglecting my dearest since i started attachment

he's never complaint and still coming all the way despite of the distance

he will be serving NS in 7 days time

oh my,

it's a little too fast

but nevertheless, every guy needs to go through that

baby,

i know you can do it

lovesssss and thank you

2009-10-12T07:47:00.000-07:00

its been sometime since i last updated my blog

been quite tied up w my attachment life

im so stressed up and tired

be it physically or mentally

struggling hard for the past 2 weeks

and i finally break down to tears today

it's so hard for me to move on in this job

their expectation is getting higher and higher as days passes

i cant keep up w the fast pace they are filling for us

ahhhhhh

19 more weeks to go

JY JASMINE!!!!!

i really dont know how long more i can endure in there

im super looking forward to this saturday

will baby give me a great surprise outing?

lol

i doubt so la hor???

k la

stay tunned people

will update when i gt the time again

2009-09-28T07:09:00.000-07:00

25/09/09

went to CCA

meet iris and davin for lunch at clementi

both dad and daughter are late

same genes la

cannot blame hor?

LOL

after lunch, bus-ed to school and meet up the rest of the members

walked to MINDS school

initially the program for the day is bowling

but to our disappointment

they cancelled it

overall, it's still a great day

after event, meet♥ at Jurong Point

accompany♥ eat and meet yc&cheryl

went to catch phobia2

i like the movie!!

after movie meet up the rest

cut cake session and blablabla

photos uploaded in facebook

26/09/09

i went gs's house

had heart to heart chat

enjoyed my day with her

love you lots...

meet up soon ok?

27/09/09

went grandma house and then JP

accompany mum to buy children's day present for her student

home aftermath

28/09/09

wake up by ♥'s call

miracle right?

he woke me up lehx

LMAO

prepared myself and headed to ♥'s crib

he prepared breakfast for me again

hahaha

thanks baby♥

i slept at his house the whole day

super tired

waited for his's mum to be home

and had dinner together

then to JP meet up with ck&sw

slack and now im here posting

shall see go where to enjoy tmr

as wed im starting my attachment

sobbbb

2009-09-24T09:30:00.000-07:00

24/09/09

this few days nothing much

so shall skip the update

as i also don't really remember what i did

only remember that day ♥ prepared breakfast for me

i like it and appreciate your 爱心早餐!

thanks♥

tomorrow will be my last time going for CCA

shall enjoy myself to the max

k la..

end here first

and not forgetting,

happy birthday yongcheng!!

2009-09-22T05:12:00.000-07:00

had a fight with her again

everyday she also have to quarrel with me

im so so tired

just give me a break, will you?

you all make me hate to come back to this house!!!

do you know how much i dread to come back?

i tried my best to be good

i really tried..

i strive hard in everything i do

i tried to be better

i hold back my temper, my attitude

is because i respect you,

i love you!

but have you ever spare a thought for me?

in your mind, in your eyes, you only see kor

what about my existence?

is it invisible to you?

how much i tried, have you ever put that in mind?

how good i treat you, have you ever put that in heart?

arghhhhhhhh, if this goes on, i'll turn bonkers

baby, i need you by my side

i need your hug

i need your love

i need your comfort...

haixxxxxxxxxxxx

2009-09-18T08:28:00.000-07:00

18/09/09

today's a bad day

start off the day with heavy rain

not really willing to attend CCA

as i hate to go out on rainy days

it just spoilt my mood

meet iris and davin at batok mrt platform

and im totally drenched

arghhh

then train-ed to tiong bahru

mac for lunch and bus-ed to Sarah

overall event was alright

i had fun

but some unpleasant things happen

shall not mentioned it out

after event, bus-ed and then train-ed home

had a tiff with bf

well, im just so sick of it

sometimes i wonder why we just don't click

ahhh

whatever la

can't be bothered

shall end here first ba

2009-09-17T08:41:00.000-07:00

17/09/09

Happy 23 months anniversary baby♥

meet♥ at JE platform

trained to bugis

top1 for k-session

headed to queensway for stingray

haha

then bus-ed to jurong west

and train-ed home aftermath

i missed those times when♥ will ride me from queensway to home

or times when he will bring me to everywhere i yearn to go

i'm so sick of taking train and bus

ahhhhhh

2009-09-16T09:49:00.000-07:00

16/09/09

meet up with my girls at bugis

had lots of fun and laughters

love them to the max

after that went over 651 to meet the bf and co.

dear sent me home aftermath

going to bed soon

lucky things turn out fine today

take care readers

nights

2009-09-15T20:48:00.000-07:00

12/09/09

went sentosa with bf & co.

underwater world and dolphin lagoon

left sentosa at around 730

headed to vivo for some shopping

and kfc for dinner

home aftermath

13/09/09

went grandma house with mum & bro

then IMM for some shopping and home

didnt met dear that day as i wasnt feeling well after the sentosa trip

sickness came knocking onto my door again

i think is because of the scorching sun over there

14/09/09

so yupp

i gave meeting my GFF & JIE a miss

so sorry guys

hope to meet up you guys soon

went over to bf's house in the morning

and cabbed over to science centre to meet up with bro

took car and went home to fetch little precious to see doctor

he's sick

doc claimed that little precious gotten depression

so ke lian

after doc sent little precious home first

then went over to west mall to get some clothes for little precious

and bro sent dear and i over to clementi to meet up with the co.

reach there not long

bf's mum called

asking us to go home and pass the keys to his sis as she was locked outside the door

cabbed back to bf house

and stayed there til 7 plus and we went over to JP and meet up with the guys

had dinner and i bought clothes for little precious

then home aftermath.

15/09/09

wake up

got myself prepared and went for my driving lesson

after that meet up with dear

mac for breakfast and cabbed over to bbdc as bf got BTT

meet the guys over at bbdc

and after their test we went separate ways

i went over to bf house

and we sleep til around 6

wake up and got ourself prepared and JP to meet up with them

dinner and some slackings

then went home

16/09/09

today got a number of things

hopefully everything turn out fine for the both of them

god blessed.

update again

bye

2009-09-11T19:39:00.000-07:00

11/09/09

wake up
got myself prepared and cabbed to ♥'s crib
left his house at around 330
cabbed to JE and meet up with the co.
train-ed to plazasing
bought tickets and have our lunch at LJS
caught final destination 3D
i felt a little bored
as we already watch it once
the 3D effect was not v good
i felt a little giddy after that
after movie walked to orchard
then shopp around
and ♥ sent me home aftermath

12/09/09

im waiting for ♥ to come over now
as he's holding on to the shirt that i intends to wear later on
hehehe
sentosa here i come...
i will update when im back
stay tunned.

2009-09-10T08:50:00.000-07:00

09/09/09

in my last post,
i did mentioned about wishing me luck for my last paper right?
but lady luck was not on my side
i screwed up my last paper
damn disappointed la
i guess this was the first time in my life
i see my paper BLANK
can u imagine BLANK???
wth
CPA was MY FAV module
but i just screwed it
i believe mr Lee would be damn damn disappointed if he saw my paper
haiz
alright enough of that

after paper, we were asked to stay back for IAP Briefing
my IA starts even earlier
thinking that i have to travel all the way to aljunied makes me sick
LOL
aftermath,
headed to pizza hut for lunch
its davin&boontheng's treat
yum yum
thanks to the both

when i reached home
then ♥ call
headed to prepare
and cabbed to ♥'s crib
then we went jp and catch BLOODTIES
when i saw M18
i super happy
i tot the movie will be scary
but to my disappointment la
kind of boring
then went to grab a bite
and ♥ send me home..

10/09/09

out with ♥
went to bugis, cityhall, plazasing and novena
so tired now
anw, i had an enjoyable and fun day
thanks ♥
tomorrow i think we will be heading to the cathay
♥ and co. wanted to catch final destination again
only difference is the 3D effect.
LOL.
kind of stupid siaz
watch the movie again
ok la
update again
maybe tomorrow?
haha
bye

2009-09-07T23:10:00.000-07:00

finally cleared BOP
that's the module i detest most in this semester
don't really pinned much hope
anyway, i did my paper with iris in another room,
separated from my classmates
as last sat i was down with a high fever of 39.9..
doc suspected H1N1.zz
have to quarantine myself.
Iris too.
LOL.
it's rather annoying to wear mask and walk around the school
when everyone look at you from a different angle.
well,
tomorrow will be my last paper before i declare holidays
and its also the last day for quarantine
hahaha
finally i get to see my belovedbaby
he's fallen sick too
i guess i spread the germs to him
=X
alright,
wish me luck for tmr paper ya
=)

2009-08-31T23:20:00.000-07:00

kind of busy for the past few weeks
explains the reason i didn't update my blog
lol
its been a habit of me skipping school
someone please psycho me
haha
exam is drawing nearer and nearer
and i have yet to start my revision
Jasmine's always a last minute worker
jialat siaz

on a sad note,
♥'s bike is sold yesterday
no more rounding for me
after school, got to take bus home
nobody coming to school and fetch me
the day before ♥ sold his bike
he brought me to many places
payalebar, aljunied, geylang, bugis, jurongwest, orchard, ps, esplanade, and lastly gombak
kind of sad when we got to pass the bike to someone else
alright, enough of all this

yesterday followed ♥ back to his secondary school
as i asked around, nobody from my class went back
when i was at his school
i super missed those times when i had in my school
missed all my dearest friends so much so much
initially meeting the girls at jp
but in the end i put aeroplane
super guilty la
im so sorry
promise to meet up you girls soon.

in the evening went to jp for movie with ♥ and co.
caught final destination
i kept laughing la
super bad of me
i think im a sadist
LOL

alright
shall end here first
bye

2009-08-11T04:44:00.000-07:00

its been sometime since i last came in,
i think i will not be blogging for the next few days too
will spent most of my time on projects
as 14aug is the due date of all the projects
hopefully, everything can be done by thursday
wish me good luck ya?
haha

have been quarreling with ♥ for the past few days
finally 雨过天晴.
LOL
yesterday silly ♥ popped me a question
asking me if i wants to marry him.
im kind of startled
i think he will ask this question reason mainly because
i ask him will he tattoo my name?
and he say yes
then he popped me that question
hahaha
he scare i leave him
then his tattoo wasted lor

today school as usual
kind of boring
as lesson almost all completed
thus, no lectures
free time is all we had
i hope faster study week
no need go school

reminder:
tomorrow - after school do projects
thursday - driving lessons
friday - boyfriend's
saturday - CCA
need to keep reminding myself
these few days suffering from STM
imagine la,
i can even forget to bring my hp out
how worst can it get?

these few days or maybe weeks have been rather tough for me
things didnt go as planned
everything came unknowingly
im stuck or rather i should say im lost
i dont know if i should just turn back or move on
so all along i have been standing in the same old position
i hate it!
i hate myself for being so indecisive
the problem goes on&on
its never ending
be it kinship, relationship or friendship
it all comes at one go

friends and family are giving me much more than i can hold
sometimes i just wish that i can dont see or hear anything
in this way, things would be better for me

many a times, i wish i can tolerate ♥'s nonsense
i really hate to quarrel with him
and hurt him with all my words
sorry baby♥,
you only got to blame yourself for falling in love with this girlfriend of yours=p
but you know, nobody love you more than i do♥
alright,
i go do research on my projects
byee

2009-08-03T08:29:00.000-07:00

nothing much for today
attend school as usual
after school rush to court there
then headed back to jp for dinner
shopp around for my formal clothes
but none caught my eyes
rather disappointing
back home
did my project
and now still playing with facebook
going to call ♥ now
byee

2009-08-02T02:02:00.000-07:00

few days didnt blog
finally got to meet up with the co. ytd
kind of miss them
haha
went ♥ house early in the morning
headed to jp meet up with the guys
dinner at jp
and pandan to wash bike
ck's house to slack
home ard 3 plus

random
♥'s gotten a new bike
known as honda sp dog.
here's a photo of it :

cute right?
LOL
alright, end here le
bye

2009-07-28T21:46:00.000-07:00

was playing ffs the whole morning
and my value gotten so high
♥'s value even higher
got no more money to purchase him back
pissed off

oh well,
im going to get myself prepared
♥'s bringing me out for lunch and movie
when im back then i continue to blog
byee

2009-07-28T14:58:00.000-07:00

jasmine's MC for 2 days
will be back on thursday
im bored
nothing to do now

it seems like everything falls on 14 aug
14 aug will be a busy day
due date for all the projects
and msia
cant wait to go
hahaha

yesterday had PIC CA3
hope i didnt do badly
because i never study for the paper =X
wish me goodluck ya

2009-07-27T02:34:00.000-07:00

some reminder to people:
there's some bitch in my class that irritates me so much
alright, i can't be bothered with them anymore
it's just a waste of my time
they are just some ill bred that will tagged on people's blog
if you see my tagboard flooded with those messages or even your blog
it will be some mad dogs that's being let out
their owner dont know how to control ya?
JERENE CHUA & EZUIN WONG are both examples of mad dogs

2009-07-23T21:36:00.000-07:00

just reached ♥ house
he's still sleeping away
so came to blog since i got nothing to do
if not when i reach home, i will be damn damn lazy
alright,
i think i did mention that things didnt go very well for me right?
i guess all the bad lucks had come to an end le ?
hopefully it won't come again

school was usual boring
many projects are to be completed before mid of august and we have even yet to start
how wonderful?
LOL.

ok,
it's been sometimes whereby i kept this to myself
and today im going to let it all out
so i will be dedicating this little message to 1 of my classmate, Jerene.
so people, you can chose to ignore this part ya?

we used to be very close, i even confide my feelings to you, treating you as a very close friend even like sister. you still remember iris's that incident whereby you told me that she hurt you deeply and you tell me not to take in her words? when the both of you told me different stories, i chose to believe yours instead of hers? maybe you are angry that i be friends back with iris but she's really a changed person now. that's also the reason why i be friends with her. for my character, i don't like to hate people, i don't like to have enemies, i rather to have one more friend than enemy.
i didn't know what causes the resentment in you between us
when the holidays starts, we still agreed on not letting others or anyone break the bonds between us, we promised to treasure the friendship that we shared but when the holidays ends, you totally became a changed person. it's just like out of a sudden, you chose to ignore me and stare at me for no reason. i thought u are the one who says that if there's any thing, just come face to face and talk it out? but why aren't you not doing this now? i don't know what you're thinking or what do you actually wants from us, but keep talking behind others back, will it do any good to you? if you really hate us so much and don't even wish to be friend with us, can you at least let me know? your actions for the past few weeks really hurts me alot. i didn't know the reason why i just lose a close friend like that. thanks

finally my korkor can booked out
later going to pasir ris to fetch him
im sure my dog will be thrilled to see him
alright,
shall end here first
go accompany ♥ le

2009-07-21T08:48:00.000-07:00

school was indeed boring
but with the cliques around
from boring will change to happening
LOL
a short post and i will go off to bed
tomorrow early in the morning having roleplay
hope can finish by tomorrow
jy GFF

today heard something unpleasant
shall not mention it
but i will pray hard for you
haiz

2009-07-19T03:20:00.000-07:00

was back to post
things hasnt been going too well for me recently
just wish that it will turn great soon
and i mean real soon
feeling that my life is such a boredom.
everyday leading in the same routine

on the other note,
a coincidence happens yesterday
met yongchai for movie
he helped us to purchase our tickets first as we are still on our way there only
knowing that he's with his friend
but we didn't have the chance to see them
as the movie already started when ♥ and i reached
after movie, then i realized that his friends are my friends too
LOL

tomorrow is monday,
school life..zz
boring routine again
alright, shall post again when im free.