i'm back to this space again
i feel that my life is so mundane
everyday is the same old routine..

these past few days i have been struggling with my mind and heart
i didn't know which decision is the perfect one
anyway, till now i still have not come to a conclusion
I heard from someone on the other day,
whenever we get into a relationship and we leave that particular person
we will always hope that there is still a thing that belongs to us..
and when the other party give their everything to the other person,
we will then feel the anger and hurt
I don't understand why human are like this..
and I was wondering did I leave a part of me for my past relationships?
and do I still stand a place/something in them..
In fact, I knew the answer very well..
but I'm still very curious to know it.

Baby is recovering
he can stand and walk for a distance without any help
it's great to see him recovering
yesterday,
he even accompanied me walked all the way to the market
despite of the looks on other peoples' face and everything
he is one that cares alot on how people look at him
I knew he felt terrible although he did not breathe a word about it
I simply just don't understand why in the earth that people are so KPO
ask these ask that..
shut up people!!!
it's none of your business right
why do you bother to ask and look
it's not like as if he is an alien or something...
damn all these people mann!!!

he has been giving in to me way too much
I know it hurts you to see me changing
but I also feel the hurt
I hate to see you like this
I hate to see you always compromising to whatever i asked for
even though you feel so much agony
I hate myself for being like that too..
hais..

wasn't feeling well for these past few days
sickness knocked on my door once again..
please let me recover soon..
end here first..